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This is what it must be like to be drunk, Sally finds herself thinking, as Gary presses against her. His hands are on her skin, and she doesn't stop him. They're under her T-shirt, they're into her shorts, and still she doesn't stop him. She wants the heat he's making her feel; she, who can't function without directions and a map, wants to get lost right now. She can feel herself giving in to his kisses; she's ready to do just about anything. This is what it must be like to be crazy, she guesses. Everything she's doing is so unlike her usual self that when Sally catches sight of her image in the cloudy side-view mirror, she's stunned. It's a woman who could fall in love if she let herself, a woman who doesn't stop Gary when he lifts her dark hair away, then presses his mouth to the hollow of her throat.
What good would it do her to get involved with someone like him? She'd have to feel so much, and she's not that kind. She couldn't abide those poor, incoherent women who came to the aunts' back door, and she could not stand to be one of them now, wild with grief, overcome with what some people call love.
She pulls away from Gary, out of breath, her mouth hot, the rest of her burning. She has managed to exist this long without; she can keep on doing it. She can make herself go cold, from the inside out. The drizzle is letting up, but the sky has become as dark as a pot of ink. In the east, thunder sounds as the storm moves in from the sea.
"Maybe I'm letting you do this so you'll stop the investigation," Sally says. "Did you ever think of that? Maybe I'm so desperate I'd fuck anyone, including you."
Her mouth tastes bitter and cruel, but she doesn't care. She wants to see that wounded look on his face. She wants to stop this before that option is no longer hers. Before what she feels takes hold and she's trapped, like those women at the aunts' back door.
"Sally," Gary says. "You're not like that."
"Oh, really?" Sally says. "You don't know me. You just think you do."
"That's right. I think I do," he says, which is about as much of an argument as Sally's going to get.
"Get out," she tells Gary. "Get out of the car."
At this moment, Gary wishes he could grab her and force her, at least until she gave in. He'd like to make love to her right here, he'd like to do it all night and not give a damn about anything else, and not listen if she told him no. But he's not that kind of man, and he never will be. He's seen too many lives go wrong when a man allows himself to be led around by his dick. It's like giving in to drugs or alcohol or the fast cash you've just got to have, no questions asked. Gary has always understood why people give in and do as they please with no thought of anyone else. Their minds shut off, and he's not going to do that, even if it means he won't get what he really wants.
"Sally," he says, and his voice causes her more anguish than she would ever have imagined possible. It's the kindness that undoes her, it's the mercy in spite of everything that's happened and is happening still.
"I want you to get out," Sally says. "This is a mistake. It's all wrong."
"It isn't." But Gary opens the door and gets out. He leans back down, and Sally makes herself look straight ahead, at the windshield. She doesn't dare look at him.
"Close it," Sally says. Her voice sounds fragile, a shattered, undependable thing. "I mean it."
He closes the car door, but he stands there watching. Even if she doesn't look, Sally knows he hasn't walked away. This is the way it has to be. She'll be removed forever, distant as stars, unhurt and untouched, forever and ever. Sally steps on the gas, knowing that if she turned to see, she'd find he was still standing in the parking lot. But she doesn't look back, because if she did she'd also discover how much she wants him, for all the good it will ever do her.
Gary does watch her drive away, and he's watching still when the first bit of lightning cracks across the sky. He's there when the crab apple on the far side of the parking lot turns white with heat; he's close enough to feel the charge, and he'll feel it all the way home, as he's high above them in the sky, headed west. With a close call like that, it makes perfect sense that he'll be shaking as he turns the key in his own front door. As Gary understands it, the greatest portion of grief is the one you dish out for yourself, and he and Sally have both served themselves from the same table tonight, the only difference being that he knows what he's missing, and she has no idea of what's causing her to cry as she drives down the Turnpike.
When Sally gets home, her dark hair loose, her mouth bruised by kisses, Gillian is waiting up for her. She's sitting in the kitchen, drinking tea and listening to the thunder.
"Did you fuck him?" Gillian says.
The question is both completely startling and totally commonplace, since it's Gillian who's asking. Sally actually laughs. "No."
"Too bad," Gillian says. "I thought you would. I thought you were hooked. You had that look in your eye."
"You were wrong," Sally says.
"Did he at least make you a deal? Did he tell you we're not suspects? Will he let it slide?"
"He has to think it over." Sally sits down at the table. She feels the way she would if someone had smacked her. The weight of never seeing Gary again descends like a cloak made of ashes. She thinks about his kisses and the way he touched her, and she gets turned inside out all over again. "He has a conscience."
"Just our luck. And it only gets worse."
Tonight the wind will continue to rise, until there's not a single trashcan left standing on the street. The clouds will be as tall as black mountains. In the backyard, beneath the hedge of thorns, the earth will turn to mud, and then to water, a pool of deception and regret.
"Jimmy's not staying buried. First the ring, then a boot. I'm afraid to guess what's going to come up next. I start to think about it, and I just kind of black out. I listened to the news, and the storm that's coming is going to be bad."
Sally moves her chair closer to Gillian's. Their knees touch. Their pulse rate is exactly the same, the way it always was during a thunderstorm. "What do we do?" Sally whispers.
It's the first time she's ever asked for Gillian's opinion or advice, and Gillian follows her example. It's actually true, what they say about asking for help. Take a deep breath and it hurts a whole lot less to admit it out loud.
"Call the aunts," Gillian tells Sally. "Do it now."
ON THE EIGHTH DAY of the eighth month the aunts arrive on a Greyhound bus. The minute the driver hops down, he makes certain to get their black suitcases from the luggage compartment first thing, even though the larger of their suitcases is so heavy he has to use all his strength just to budge it and he nearly tears a ligament when he lifts it out.
"Hold your horses," he advises the other passengers, who are all complaining that they're the ones who must have their suitcases now in order to catch a connecting bus or run to meet a husband or a friend. The driver just ignores them and goes about his business. "I wouldn't want you ladies to wait," he tells the aunts.
The aunts are so old it's impossible to tell their age. Their hair is white and their spines are crooked. They wear long black skirts and laced leather boots. Though they haven't left Massachusetts in more than forty years, they're certainly not intimidated by travel. Or by anything else, for that matter. They know what they want and they're not afraid to be outspoken, which is why they pay no attention to the other passengers' complaints, and continue to direct the driver on how to place the larger suitcase on the curb carefully.
"What have you got in here?" the driver jokes. "A ton of bricks?"
The aunts don't bother to answer, they have very little tolerance for dim-witted humor, and they're not interested in making polite conversation. They stand on the corner near the bus station and whistle for a taxi; as soon as one pulls over, they tell the driver exactly where to go—along the Turnpike for seven miles, past the mall and the shopping centers, past the Chinese restaurant and the deli and the ice cream shop where Antonia has worked this summer. The aunts smell like lavender and sulfur, a disquieting mixture, and maybe that's the reason the taxi driver holds the door open for them when they arrive at Sally's house, even though they didn't bother to tip him. The aunts don't believe in tips, and they never have. They believe in earning your worth and doing the job right. And, when you come right down to it, that's what they're here for.
Sally offered to pick them up at the bus station, but the aunts would have none of that. They can get around just fine on their own. They prefer to come to a place slowly, and that's what they're doing now. The lawns are wet, and the air is motionless and thick, the way it always is before a storm. A haze hangs over the houses and the chimney tops. The aunts stand in Sally's driveway, between the Honda and Jimmy's Oldsmobile, their black suitcases set down beside them. They close their eyes, to get a sense of this place. In the poplar trees, the sparrows watch with interest. The spiders stop spinning their webs. The rain will begin after midnight, on this the aunts agree. It will fall in sheets, like rivers of glass. It will fall until the whole world seems silver and turned upside down. You can feel such things when you have rheumatism, or when you've lived as long as the aunts have.
Inside the house, Gillian feels twitchy, the way people do before lightning is about to strike. She's wearing old blue jeans and a black cotton shirt, and her hair's uncombed. She's like a kid who refuses to dress up for company. But the company's arrived anyway; Gillian can feel their presence. The air is as dense as chocolate cake, the good kind, made without flour. The ceiling light in the living room has begun to sway; its metal chain makes a clackety sound, as if somewhere a top had been spun too fast. Gillian yanks the curtains back and takes a look.
"Oh, my god," she says. "The aunts are in the driveway."
Outside, the air is turning even thicker, like soup, and it has a yellow, sulfury odor, which some people find rather pleasant and others experience as so revolting they slam their windows shut, then turn their air conditioners on high. By evening, the wind will be strong enough to carry off small dogs and toss children from their swing sets, but for now it's just a slight breeze. Linda Bennett has pulled into her driveway next door; when she gets out of her car, she has a bag of groceries balanced on her hip and she waves to the aunts with her free hand. Sally mentioned that some elderly relatives might arrive for a visit.
"They're a bit odd," Sally warned her next-door neighbor, but to Linda they look like sweet little old ladies.
Linda's daughter, who used to be Jessie and now calls herself Isabella, slides out of the passenger seat and wrinkles her nose—through which she has taken to wearing three silver rings—as if she smells something rotten. She looks over and sees the aunts studying Sally's house.
"Who are those old bats?" the so-called Isabella asks her mother.
Her words are carried across the lawn, each nasty syllable falling into Sally's driveway with a clatter. The aunts turn and look at Isabella with their clear gray eyes, and when they do she feels something absolutely weird in her fingers and her toes, a sensation so threatening and strange that she runs into the house, gets into bed, and pulls the covers over her head. It will be weeks before this girl mouths off to her mother, or anyone else, and even then she'll think twice, she'll reconsider, then rephrase, with a "Please" or a "Thank you" thrown in.
"Let me know if you need anything during your visit," Linda calls to Sally's aunts, and all at once she feels better than she has in years.
Sally has come to stand beside her sister, and she taps on the window to get the aunts' attention. The aunts look up and blink; and when they spy Sally and Gillian on the other side of the glass, they wave, just as they did when the girls first arrived at the airport in Boston. For Sally to see the aunts in her own driveway, however, is like seeing two worlds collide. It would be no less unusual for a meteorite to have landed beside the Oldsmobile, or for shooting stars to drift across the lawn, than it is to have the aunts here at Hast.
"Come on," Sally says, tugging on Gillian's sleeve, but Gillian just shakes her head no.
Gillian hasn't seen the aunts for eighteen years, and although they haven't aged as much as she, she never quite took notice of how old they were. She always thought of them together, a unit, and now she sees that Aunt Frances is nearly six inches taller than her sister, and that Aunt Bridget, whom they always called Aunt Jet, is actually cheerful and plump, like a little hen dressed up in black skirts and boots.
"I need time to process this," Gillian says.
"Two minutes had better be enough," Sally informs her, as she goes outside to welcome their guests.
"The aunts!" Kylie shouts when she sees they've arrived. She calls upstairs to Antonia, who rushes to join her, taking two steps at a time. The sisters make a dash for the open door, then realize that Gillian is still at the window.
"Come with us," Kylie says to her.
"Go on," Gillian advises the girls. "I'll be right here."
Kylie and Antonia hurry to the driveway and throw themselves at the aunts. They hoot and holler and dance the aunts around until they are all flushed and out of breath. When Sally phoned and explained about the problem in the yard, the aunts listened carefully, then assured her they'd be on the bus to New York as soon as they set out food for the last remaining cat, old Magpie. The aunts always kept their promises, and they still do. They believe that every problem has a solution, although it may not be the outcome that was originally hoped for or expected.
For instance, the aunts had never expected their own lives to be so completely altered by a single phone call in the middle of the night those many years ago. It was October and cold, and the big house was drafty; the sky outside was so gloomy it pushed down on anyone who dared to walk beneath it. The aunts had their schedule, to which they kept no matter what. They took their walk in the morning, then read and wrote in their journals, then had lunch—the same lunch every day—mashed parsnips and potatoes, noodle pudding, and apple tart for dessert. They napped in the afternoon and did their business at twilight, should anyone come to the back door. They always had their supper in the kitchen—beans and toast, soup and crackers—and they kept the lights turned low, to save on electricity. Every night they faced the dark, since they could never sleep.
Their hearts had been broken on the night those two brothers ran across the town green; they'd been broken so hard and so suddenly that the aunts never again allowed themselves to be taken by surprise, not by lightning, and certainly not by love. They believed in their schedules and very little else. Occasionally they would attend a town meeting, where their stern presence could easily sway a vote, or they'd visit the library, where the sight of their black skirts and boots induced silence in even the rowdiest book borrowers.
The aunts assumed they knew their life and all that it would bring. They were well acquainted with their own fates, or so they believed. They were quite convinced nothing could come between their present and their own quiet deaths, in bed, of course, from pneumonia and complications of the flu at the ages of ninety-two and ninety-four. But they must have missed something, or perhaps it's simply that one can never predict one's own fortune. The aunts never imagined that a small and serious voice would phone in the middle of the night, demanding to be taken in, disrupting everything. That was the end of parsnips and potatoes at lunch. Instead, the aunts got used to peanut butter and jelly, graham crackers and alphabet soup, Mallomar cookies and handfuls of M&M's. How odd that they would be grateful to have had to deal with sore throats and nightmares. Without those two girls, they would never have had to run down the hall in their bare feet in the middle of the night to see which one had a stomach virus and which one was sleeping tight.
Frances comes to the porch to better assess her niece's house.
"Modern, but very nice," she announces.
Sally feels the sting of pride. It's as high a compliment as Aunt Frances would ever give; it means that Sally's done it all on her own, and done well. Sally's grateful for any kind words or deeds; she can use them. She was awake all night because every time she closed her eyes she'd see Gary so clearly it was as if he were there beside her at the kitchen table, in the easy chair, in her bed. She has a tape that keeps playing inside her head, over and over, and she can't seem to stop it. Gary Hallet is touching her right now, he has his hands on her as she leans to grab her aunt's suitcase. When she tries to lift this piece of luggage, Sally is shocked to discover she hasn't the strength to do it alone. Something inside rattles like beads, or bricks, or perhaps even bones.
"For the problem in the yard," Aunt Frances explains.
"Ah," Sally says.
Aunt Jet comes over and links her arm through Sally's. During the summer that Jet turned sixteen, two local boys killed themselves for her love. One tied iron bars to his ankles and drowned himself in a quarry. The other was done in on the train tracks outside of town by the 10:02 to Boston. Of all the Owens women, Jet Owens was the most beautiful, and she never even noticed. She preferred cats to human beings and turned down every offer from the men who fell in love with her. The only one she ever cared for was that boy who was hit by lightning when he and his brother went tearing off across the town green to prove how brave and daring they were. Sometimes, late at night, Jet and Frances both hear the sound of those boys laughing as they run through the rain, then stumble into the darkness. Their voices are still young and filled with expectation, exactly as they sounded at the moment they were struck down.
Lately, Aunt Jet has to carry a black cane that has a carved raven's head; she's bent over with arthritis, but she never complains about the way her back feels when she unlaces her boots at the end of the day. Each morning she washes with the black soap she and Frances mix up twice a year, and her complexion is close to perfect. She works in her garden and can remember the Latin name of every plant that grows there. But not a day goes by that she doesn't think about the boy she loved. Not a moment passes that she doesn't wish that time were a movable entity and that she could go backward and kiss that boy again.
"We're so glad to be here," Jet announces.
Sally smiles a beautiful sad smile. "I should have invited you a long time ago. I didn't think either of you would like it."
"That just goes to show that you never can tell about a person by guessing," Frances informs her niece. "That's why language was invented. Otherwise, we'd all be like dogs, sniffing each other to find out where we stood."
"You're absolutely right," Sally agrees.
The suitcases are lugged inside, which is no easy job. Antonia and Kylie shout, "Heave ho!" and work together, under the aunts' watchful eyes. Waiting by the window, Gillian has considered escaping through the back door so she won't have to face the aunts' critique on how she's messed up her life. But when Kylie and Antonia lead the aunts inside, Gillian is standing in the very same spot, her pale hair electrified.
Some things, when they change, never do return to the way they once were. Butterflies, for instance, and women who've been in love with the wrong man too often. The aunts cluck their tongues as soon as they see this grown woman who once was their little girl. They may not have had regular dinnertimes or made certain that clean clothes were folded in the bureaus, but they were there. They were the ones Gillian turned to that first year, when the other children at nursery school pulled her hair and called her the witch-girl. Gillian never told Sally how awful it was, how they persecuted her, and she was just three years old. It was embarrassing, that much she knew even then. It was something you didn't admit to.
Every day Gillian came home and swore to Sally that she'd had a lovely afternoon, she'd played with blocks and paints, and fed the bunny that eyed the children sadly from a cage near the coat closet. But Gillian couldn't lie to the aunts when they came to fetch her. At the end of each day her hair was in tangles and her face and legs were scratched red. The aunts advised her to ignore the other children—to read her books and play her games by herself and march over to inform the teacher if anyone was nasty or rude. Even then, Gillian believed she was worthy of the awful treatment she got, and she never did go running to the teacher and tattle. She tried her best to keep it inside.
The aunts, however, could tell what was happening from the sorry slope of Gillian's shoulders as she pulled her sweater on and because she couldn't sleep at night. Most of the children eventually tired of teasing Gillian, but several continued to torment her—whispering "witch" every time she was near, spilling grape juice on her new shoes, grabbing fistfuls of her hair and pulling with all their might—and they did so until the Christmas party.
All the children's parents attended the party, bringing cookies or cakes or bowls of eggnog sprinkled with nutmeg. The aunts came late, wearing their black coats. Gillian had hoped they would remember to bring a box of chocolate chip cookies, or perhaps a Sara Lee cake, but the aunts weren't interested in desserts. They went directly to the worst of the children, the boys who pulled hair, the girls who called names. The aunts didn't have to use curses or herbs, or vow any sort of punishment. They merely stood beside the snack table, and every child who'd been mean to Gillian was immediately sick to his or her stomach. These children ran to their parents and begged to be taken home, then stayed in bed for days, shivering beneath wool blankets, so queasy and filled with remorse that their complexions took on a faint greenish tinge, and their skins gave off the sour scent that always accompanies a guilty conscience.
After the Christmas party, the aunts took Gillian home and sat her down on the sofa in the parlor, the velvet one with the wooden lion's feet whose claws terrified Gillian. They told her how sticks and stones could break bones, but taunting and name-calling were only for fools. Gillian heard them, but she didn't really listen. She put too much worth in what other people thought and not enough in her own opinion. The aunts have always known that Gillian sometimes needs extra help defending herself. As they study her, their gray eyes are bright and sharp. They see the lines on her face that someone else might not notice; they can tell what she's been through.
"I look awful, right?" Gillian says. There's a catch in her voice. A minute ago she was eighteen and climbing out her bedroom window, and now here she is, all used up.
The aunts cluck louder and come to embrace Gillian. It is so unlike their usual cool style that a sob escapes from Gillian's throat. To their credit, the aunts have learned a thing or two since they were snagged into raising two little girls. They've watched Oprah; they know what can happen when you hide your love away. As far as they're concerned, Gillian is more attractive than ever, but then the Owens women have always been known for their beauty, as well as the foolish choices they make when they're young. In the twenties, their cousin Jinx, whose watercolors can be found in the Museum of Fine Arts, was too headstrong to listen to a word anyone else said; she got drunk on cold champagne, threw her satin shoes over a high stone wall, then danced on broken glass until dawn and never walked again. The most beloved of the great-aunts, Barbara Owens, married a man with a skull as thick as a mule's who refused to have electricity or plumbing put into their house, insisting such things were fads. Their favorite cousin, April Owens, lived in the Mojave Desert for twelve years, collecting spiders in jars filled with formaldehyde. A decade or two on the rocks gives a person character. Although she'd never believe it, those lines in Gillian's face are the most beautiful part about her. They reveal what she's gone through and what she's survived and who exactly she is, deep inside.
"Well," Gillian says when she's done crying. She wipes at her eyes with her hands. "Who would have thought I'd get so emotional?"
The aunts settle in, and then Sally pours them each a small glass of gin and bitters, which they always appreciate, and which they particularly like to get them started when there's work to be done.
"Let's talk about the fellow in the backyard," Frances says. "Jimmy."
"Do we have to?" Gillian groans.
"We do," Aunt Jet is sorry to say. "Just little things about him. For instance—how did he die?"
Antonia and Kylie are gulping diet Cokes and listening like crazy. The hair on their arms is standing on end; this could get really interesting.
Sally has brought a pot of mint tea to the table, along with a chipped cup her daughters gave her one Mother's Day, which has always been her favorite. Sally can't drink coffee anymore; the scent of it conjures Gary up so completely she could have sworn he was sitting at the table when Gillian was pouring water through the filter this morning. She tells herself it's the lack of caffeine that's been making her lethargic, but that's not what's wrong. She's been unusually quiet today, moody enough to make Antonia and Kylie take notice. She seems so different. The girls have had the feeling that the woman who was once their mother is gone forever. It's not only that her black hair is loose, instead of being pulled away from her face; it's how sad she looks, how far away.
"I don't think we should discuss this in front of the children," Sally says.
But the children are riveted; they'll die if they don't hear what happened next; they simply won't be able to stand it.
"Mother!" they cry.
They're almost women. And there's not a thing Sally can do about it. So she shrugs and nods to Gillian, giving her the okay.
"Well," Gillian says, "I guess I killed him."
The aunts exchange a look. In their opinion this is one thing Gillian is not capable of. "How?" they ask. This is the girl who would scream if she stepped on a spider in her bare feet. If she pricked her finger and drew blood she'd announce she was ready to faint and then proceed to fall on the floor.
Gillian admits she used nightshade, a plant she always had contempt for when she was a child, pretending it was ragweed so she could give it a good pull when the aunts asked her to clear out the garden. When the aunts ask for the dosage she used and Gillian tells them, the aunts nod, pleased. Exactly as they thought. If the aunts know anything, they know nightshade. Such a dosage wouldn't kill a fox terrier, let alone a six-foot-tall man.
"But he's dead," Gillian says, stunned to hear that her remedy could not have killed him. She turns to Sally. "I know he was dead."
"Definitely dead," Sally agrees.
"Not by your hand." Frances could not be more certain of it. "Not unless he was a chipmunk."
Gillian throws her arms around the aunts. Aunt Frances's announcement has filled her with hope. It's a silly and ridiculous thing to possess at her age, particularly on this awful night, but Gillian doesn't give a damn. Better late than never, that's the way she sees it.
"I'm innocent," Gillian cries.
Sally and the aunts exchange a look; they don't know about that.
"In this case," Gillian adds when she sees their expressions.
"What killed him?" Sally asks the aunts.
"It could have been anything." Jet shrugs.
"Alcohol," Kylie proposes. "Years of it."
"His heart," Antonia suggests.
Frances announces that they may as well stop this guessing game; they'll never know what killed him, but they're still left with a body in the yard, and that is why the aunts have brought along their recipe for getting rid of the many nasty things one can find in a garden—slugs or aphids, the bloody remains of a crow, torn apart by his rivals, or the sort of weeds that are so poisonous it's impossible to pull them by hand, even when wearing thick leather gloves. The aunts know precisely how much lye to add to the lime, much more than they include when they boil up their black soap, which is especially beneficial to a woman's skin if she washes with it every night. Bars of the aunts' soap, wrapped in clear cellophane, can be found in health-food stores in Cambridge and in several specialty shops along Newbury Street, and this has bought not only a new roof for their old house but a state-of-the-art septic system as well.
At home the aunts always use the big cast-iron cauldron, which has been in the kitchen since Maria Owens first built the house, but here Sally's largest pasta pot will have to do. They'll have to boil the ingredients for three and a half hours, so even though Kylie is always nervous that someone down at Del Vecchio's will recognize her voice as the one belonging to the wiseacre who had all those pizzas delivered to Mr. Frye's house a while back, she phones in and asks for two large pies to be delivered, one with anchovies, for the aunts, the other cheese and mushroom with extra sauce.
The mixture on the back burner starts to bubble, and by the time the delivery boy arrives, the sky has grown stormy and dark, although beneath the thick layers of clouds is a perfect white moon. The delivery boy knocks three times and hopes that Antonia Owens, whom he once sat next to in algebra, will appear. Instead, it's Aunt Frances who yanks open the door. The cuffs of her sleeves are smoky, from all the lye she's been measuring, and her eyes are as cold as iron.
"What?" she demands of the boy, who has already clutched the pizzas tightly to his chest simply because of the sight of her.
"Pizza delivery," he manages to say.
"This is your job?" Frances wants to know. "Delivering food?"
"That's right," the boy says. He thinks he can see Antonia in the house; there's somebody beautiful with red hair, at any rate. Frances is glaring at him. "That's right, ma'am," he amends.
Frances reaches into her skirt pocket for her change purse and counts out eighteen dollars and thirty-three cents, which she considers highway robbery.
"Well, if it's your job, don't expect a tip," she tells the boy.
"Hey, Josh," Antonia calls as she comes to collect the pizzas. She's wearing an old smock over her black T-shirt and leggings. Her hair has turned to ringlets in all this humidity and her pale skin looks creamy and cool. The delivery boy is unable to speak in her presence, although when he gets back to the restaurant he'll talk about her for a good hour before the kitchen staff tells him to shut up. Antonia laughs as she closes the door. She's gotten back some of whatever she'd lost. Attraction, she now understands, is a state of mind.
"Pizza," Antonia announces, and they all sit down to dinner in spite of the awful smell coming from the aunts' mixture boiling on the rear burner of the stove. The storm is rattling the windowpanes and the thunder is so near it can shake the ground. One big flash of lightning, and half the neighborhood has lost its electricity; in houses all along the street, people are searching for flashlights and hurricane candles, or just giving up and going to sleep.
"That's good luck," Aunt Jet says when their electricity goes as well. "We'll be the light in the darkness."
"Find a candle," Sally suggests.
Kylie gets a candle from the shelf near the sink. When she passes the stove she holds her nose closed with her fingers.
"Boy, does that stink," she says of the aunts' mixture.
"It's supposed to," Jet says, pleased.
"It always does," her sister agrees.
Kylie returns and places the candle in the center of the table, then lights it so they can go on with their supper, which is interrupted by the doorbell.
"It better not be that delivery boy back for more," Frances says now. "I'll give him a real piece of my mind."
"I'll get it." Gillian goes to the door and swings it open.
Ben Frye is on the porch, wearing a yellow rain slicker; he's holding a box of white hurricane candles and a lantern. Just seeing him makes a chill go down Gillian's spine. From the first, she's been figuring that Ben was taking his life in his hands each time he was with her. With her luck and her history, anything that could go wrong would. She'd been sure she'd bring disaster to whoever loved her, but that was back when she was a woman who killed her boyfriend in an Oldsmobile, now she's someone else. She leans out the front door and kisses Ben on the mouth. She kisses him in a way that proves that if he was ever thinking of getting out of this, he'd better stop thinking right now.
"Who invited you here?" Gillian says, but she has her arms around him; she's got that sugary smell anyone who gets too close to her can't help but notice.
"I was worried about you," Ben says. "They can call this thing a storm, but it's really a hurricane."
Tonight, Ben has left Buddy alone to bring the candles over, even though he knows how anxious thunder makes the rabbit. That's what happens when Ben wants to see Gillian, he has to go on and do it, no matter what the consequences. Still, he's so unused to being spontaneous that whenever he does something like this he has a slight ringing in his ears, not that he cares. When Ben returns to his house he's bound to find a telephone book shredded or the soles chewed off his favorite running shoes, but it's worth it to be with Gillian.
"Get out while the going's good," Gillian tells him. "My aunts are here from Massachusetts."
"Great," Ben says, and before Gillian can stop him he's inside the house. Gillian tugs at the sleeve of his rain slicker, but he's on his way to greet their guests. The aunts have serious business ahead of them; they'll flip their lids if Ben careens into the kitchen assuming he's about to meet two dear old ladies. They'll rise from their chairs and stomp their feet and turn their cold gray eyes in his direction.
"They arrived this afternoon and they're exhausted," Gillian says. "This is not a good idea. They don't like company. Plus, they're ancient."
Ben Frye pays no attention, and why should he? The aunts are Gillian's family, and that's all he needs to know. He lopes right into the kitchen, where Antonia and Kylie and Sally stop eating the minute they see him; quickly they turn to see the aunts' reaction. Ben doesn't catch on to their anxiety any more than he notices the fiery scent rising from the pot on the stove. He must presume the smell emanates from some special cleaning fluid or detergent, or perhaps some small creature, a baby squirrel or an old toad, has curled up to die underneath the back doorstep.
Ben goes over to the aunts, reaches into the sleeve of his rain slicker, and pulls out a bunch of roses. Aunt Jet accepts them with pleasure. "Lovely," she says.
Aunt Frances runs a petal between her thumb and forefinger to verify that the roses are real. They are, but that doesn't mean Frances is so easily impressed.
"Any more tricks?" she says in a voice that can turn a man's blood to ice.
Ben smiles his beautiful smile, the one that made Gillian weak in the knees from the start and that now reminds the aunts of the boys they once knew. He reaches behind Aunt Frances's head, and before they know it, he has pulled from thin air a chiffon scarf the color of sapphires, which he proudly presents.
"I couldn't accept this," Frances says, but her tone isn't quite so cool as before, and when no one's looking, she loops the scarf around her neck. The color is perfect for her; her eyes look like lake water, clear and gray-blue. Ben makes himself comfortable, grabs a piece of pizza, and begins to ask Jet about their trip down from Massachusetts. That's when Frances signals to Gillian to come close.
"Don't screw this one up," she tells her niece.
"I don't intend to," Gillian assures her.
Ben stays until eleven. He fixes instant chocolate pudding for dessert, then teaches Kylie and Antonia and Aunt Jet how to build a house of cards and how to make it fall down with a single puff of air.
"You got lucky this time," Sally tells her sister.
"You think it was luck?" Gillian grins.
"Yeah," Sally says.
"No way," Gillian says. "It took years of practice."
Just then the aunts both tilt their heads at the very same time and make a very little noise low in their throats, a kind of click so close to silence that anyone who wasn't listening carefully might mistake it for the faint call of a cricket or the sigh of a mouse beneath the floorboards.
"It's time," Aunt Frances says.
"We have family business to discuss," Jet tells Ben as she leads him to the door.
Aunt Jet's voice is always sweet, yet the tone isn't one someone would dare to disobey. Ben grabs his rain slicker and waves to Gillian.
"I'll call you in the morning," he declares. "I'll come over for breakfast."
"Don't screw this one up," Aunt Jet tells Gillian after she's closed the door behind Ben.
"I won't," Gillian assures her as well. She goes to the window and takes a look at the backyard. "It's awful tonight."
The wind is tearing shingles from the roofs, and every cat in the neighborhood has demanded to be let in or has taken refuge in a window well, to shiver and yowl.
"Maybe we should wait," Sally ventures.
"Bring the pot around back," Aunt Jet tells Kylie and Antonia.
The candle in the center of the table casts a circle of wavery light. Aunt Jet takes Gillian's hand in her own. "We have to see to this now. You don't put off dealing with a ghost."
"What do you mean, a ghost?" Gillian says. "We want to make certain the body stays buried."
"Fine," Aunt Frances says. "If that's how you want to look at it."
Gillian wishes she'd had a gin and bitters herself when the aunts did. Instead, she finishes the last of her cold coffee, which has been sitting in a cup on the counter since late afternoon. By tomorrow morning the creek behind the high school will be deep as a river; toads will have to scramble for higher ground; children won't think twice about diving into the warm, murky water, even if they're dressed in their Sunday clothes and wearing their best pair of shoes.
"Okay," Gillian says. She knows her aunts are talking about more than a body; it's the spirit of the man, that's what's haunting them. "Fine," she tells the aunts, and she swings open the back door.
Antonia and Kylie carry the pot out to the yard. The rain is quite near; they can taste it in the air. The aunts have already had the girls bring their suitcase over to the hedge of thorns. They stand close together, and when the wind rustles their skirts the fabric makes a moaning sound.
"This dissolves what once was flesh," Aunt Frances says.
She signals to Gillian.
"Me?" Gillian takes a step backward, but there's no place to go. Sally is right behind her.
"Go on," Sally tells her.
Antonia and Kylie are holding on to the heavy pot; the wind is so strong that the hedge of thorns whips out, as if trying to cut them. The wasps' nests sway back and forth. It is definitely time.
"Oh, brother," Gillian whispers to Sally. "I don't know if I can do this."
Antonia's fingers are turning white with the effort she needs not to drop the pot. "This is really heavy," she says in a shaky voice.
"Believe me," Sally tells Gillian. "You can."
If there's one thing Sally is now certain of, it's how you can amaze yourself by the things you're willing to do. Those are her daughters, the girls she wanted to lead normal lives, and she's allowing them to stand over a pile of bones with a spaghetti pot filled mostly with lye. What has happened to her? What has snapped? Where is that logical woman, the one people could depend on, day after day? She can't stop thinking about Gary, no matter how hard she tries. She actually called the Hide-A-Way to ask if he'd checked out, and he has. He's gone, and here she is, thinking about him. Last night, she dreamed of the desert. She dreamed the aunts had sent her a cutting from an apple tree in their yard and that it bloomed without water. And in her dream the horses that ate apples from that tree ran faster than all the others, and any man who took a bite from a pie Sally fixed with these apples was bound to be hers, for life.
Sally and Gillian take the pot from the girls, although Gillian keeps her eyes closed as they turn it over and pour out the lye. The damp earth sizzles and is hot; as the mixture seeps deeper into the ground, a mist appears. It's the color of regret, it's the color of heartbreak, the gray of doves and early morning.
"Step back," the aunts tell them, for the earth has begun to bubble. The roots of the thornbushes are being dissolved by the mixture, as are stones and beetles, leather and bones. They can't move away fast enough, but still something is happening beneath Kylie's feet.
"Damn it," Sally cries.
Right under Kylie's feet the earth is shifting, falling in on itself, like a landslide, going down. Kylie feels it, she knows it, yet she freezes. She's falling into a hole, she's falling fast, but Antonia reaches to grab the back of her shirt and then pulls. She wrenches Kylie back so hard and so fast that Antonia can hear her own elbow pop.
The girls stand there, out of breath and terrified. Without realizing it, Gillian has latched on to Sally's arm; she's holding on so tight that Sally will have the marks of her sister's fingers on her skin for days afterward. Now they all step back. They do it quickly. They do it without having to be told. A thread of blood-red vapor is rising from the place where Jimmy's heart would have been, a small tornado of spite that disappears as it meets the air.
"That was him," Kylie says of the red vapor, and sure enough, they can smell beer and boot polish, they can feel the air grow as hot as embers in an ashtray. And then nothing. Nothing at all. Gillian can't be sure if she's crying, or if the rain has begun. "He's really gone," Kylie tells her.
But the aunts are taking no chances. They've carried along twenty blue stones inside their largest suitcase, stones Maria Owens had brought to the house on Magnolia Street more than two hundred years ago. Stones such as these form the path in the aunts' garden, but there were extras stored beside the potting shed, enough to fashion a small patio in the spot where the lilacs once grew. Now that the hedge of thorns is nothing but ashes, it's easy for the Owens women to put down a circle of stones. The patio won't be fancy, but it will be wide enough for a small wrought-iron table and four chairs. Some of the little girls in the neighborhood will beg to have tea parties out here, and when their mothers laugh and ask why this patio is better than their own, the little girls will insist the blue stones are lucky.
There's no such thing as luck, their mothers will tell them. Drink your orange juice, have your cakes, keep your party in your own backyard. And yet, every time their mothers' backs are turned, the little girls will drag their dolls and teddy bears and china tea sets over to the Owens patio. "Good luck," they'll whisper as they clink their cups together in a toast. "Good luck," they'll say as the stars rise above them in the sky.
Some people believe that every question has a logical answer; there's an order to everything, which is neat and based purely on empirical evidence. But really, what could it be but luck that the rain doesn't begin in earnest until their work is done. The Owens women have mud under their fingernails, and their arms ache from carting those heavy stones. Antonia and Kylie will sleep well tonight, as will the aunts, who have been plagued by insomnia from time to time. They will sleep the whole night through, even though lightning will strike in twelve separate places on Long Island before the storm is over. A house in East Meadow will be burned to the ground. A surfer in Long Beach who always longed for hurricanes and big waves will be fried. A maple tree that has grown in the Y field for three hundred years will be split in two and will have to be taken down with chain saws to make certain it won't collapse on top of the Little League team.
What good would it do her to get involved with someone like him? She'd have to feel so much, and she's not that kind. She couldn't abide those poor, incoherent women who came to the aunts' back door, and she could not stand to be one of them now, wild with grief, overcome with what some people call love.
She pulls away from Gary, out of breath, her mouth hot, the rest of her burning. She has managed to exist this long without; she can keep on doing it. She can make herself go cold, from the inside out. The drizzle is letting up, but the sky has become as dark as a pot of ink. In the east, thunder sounds as the storm moves in from the sea.
"Maybe I'm letting you do this so you'll stop the investigation," Sally says. "Did you ever think of that? Maybe I'm so desperate I'd fuck anyone, including you."
Her mouth tastes bitter and cruel, but she doesn't care. She wants to see that wounded look on his face. She wants to stop this before that option is no longer hers. Before what she feels takes hold and she's trapped, like those women at the aunts' back door.
"Sally," Gary says. "You're not like that."
"Oh, really?" Sally says. "You don't know me. You just think you do."
"That's right. I think I do," he says, which is about as much of an argument as Sally's going to get.
"Get out," she tells Gary. "Get out of the car."
At this moment, Gary wishes he could grab her and force her, at least until she gave in. He'd like to make love to her right here, he'd like to do it all night and not give a damn about anything else, and not listen if she told him no. But he's not that kind of man, and he never will be. He's seen too many lives go wrong when a man allows himself to be led around by his dick. It's like giving in to drugs or alcohol or the fast cash you've just got to have, no questions asked. Gary has always understood why people give in and do as they please with no thought of anyone else. Their minds shut off, and he's not going to do that, even if it means he won't get what he really wants.
"Sally," he says, and his voice causes her more anguish than she would ever have imagined possible. It's the kindness that undoes her, it's the mercy in spite of everything that's happened and is happening still.
"I want you to get out," Sally says. "This is a mistake. It's all wrong."
"It isn't." But Gary opens the door and gets out. He leans back down, and Sally makes herself look straight ahead, at the windshield. She doesn't dare look at him.
"Close it," Sally says. Her voice sounds fragile, a shattered, undependable thing. "I mean it."
He closes the car door, but he stands there watching. Even if she doesn't look, Sally knows he hasn't walked away. This is the way it has to be. She'll be removed forever, distant as stars, unhurt and untouched, forever and ever. Sally steps on the gas, knowing that if she turned to see, she'd find he was still standing in the parking lot. But she doesn't look back, because if she did she'd also discover how much she wants him, for all the good it will ever do her.
Gary does watch her drive away, and he's watching still when the first bit of lightning cracks across the sky. He's there when the crab apple on the far side of the parking lot turns white with heat; he's close enough to feel the charge, and he'll feel it all the way home, as he's high above them in the sky, headed west. With a close call like that, it makes perfect sense that he'll be shaking as he turns the key in his own front door. As Gary understands it, the greatest portion of grief is the one you dish out for yourself, and he and Sally have both served themselves from the same table tonight, the only difference being that he knows what he's missing, and she has no idea of what's causing her to cry as she drives down the Turnpike.
When Sally gets home, her dark hair loose, her mouth bruised by kisses, Gillian is waiting up for her. She's sitting in the kitchen, drinking tea and listening to the thunder.
"Did you fuck him?" Gillian says.
The question is both completely startling and totally commonplace, since it's Gillian who's asking. Sally actually laughs. "No."
"Too bad," Gillian says. "I thought you would. I thought you were hooked. You had that look in your eye."
"You were wrong," Sally says.
"Did he at least make you a deal? Did he tell you we're not suspects? Will he let it slide?"
"He has to think it over." Sally sits down at the table. She feels the way she would if someone had smacked her. The weight of never seeing Gary again descends like a cloak made of ashes. She thinks about his kisses and the way he touched her, and she gets turned inside out all over again. "He has a conscience."
"Just our luck. And it only gets worse."
Tonight the wind will continue to rise, until there's not a single trashcan left standing on the street. The clouds will be as tall as black mountains. In the backyard, beneath the hedge of thorns, the earth will turn to mud, and then to water, a pool of deception and regret.
"Jimmy's not staying buried. First the ring, then a boot. I'm afraid to guess what's going to come up next. I start to think about it, and I just kind of black out. I listened to the news, and the storm that's coming is going to be bad."
Sally moves her chair closer to Gillian's. Their knees touch. Their pulse rate is exactly the same, the way it always was during a thunderstorm. "What do we do?" Sally whispers.
It's the first time she's ever asked for Gillian's opinion or advice, and Gillian follows her example. It's actually true, what they say about asking for help. Take a deep breath and it hurts a whole lot less to admit it out loud.
"Call the aunts," Gillian tells Sally. "Do it now."
ON THE EIGHTH DAY of the eighth month the aunts arrive on a Greyhound bus. The minute the driver hops down, he makes certain to get their black suitcases from the luggage compartment first thing, even though the larger of their suitcases is so heavy he has to use all his strength just to budge it and he nearly tears a ligament when he lifts it out.
"Hold your horses," he advises the other passengers, who are all complaining that they're the ones who must have their suitcases now in order to catch a connecting bus or run to meet a husband or a friend. The driver just ignores them and goes about his business. "I wouldn't want you ladies to wait," he tells the aunts.
The aunts are so old it's impossible to tell their age. Their hair is white and their spines are crooked. They wear long black skirts and laced leather boots. Though they haven't left Massachusetts in more than forty years, they're certainly not intimidated by travel. Or by anything else, for that matter. They know what they want and they're not afraid to be outspoken, which is why they pay no attention to the other passengers' complaints, and continue to direct the driver on how to place the larger suitcase on the curb carefully.
"What have you got in here?" the driver jokes. "A ton of bricks?"
The aunts don't bother to answer, they have very little tolerance for dim-witted humor, and they're not interested in making polite conversation. They stand on the corner near the bus station and whistle for a taxi; as soon as one pulls over, they tell the driver exactly where to go—along the Turnpike for seven miles, past the mall and the shopping centers, past the Chinese restaurant and the deli and the ice cream shop where Antonia has worked this summer. The aunts smell like lavender and sulfur, a disquieting mixture, and maybe that's the reason the taxi driver holds the door open for them when they arrive at Sally's house, even though they didn't bother to tip him. The aunts don't believe in tips, and they never have. They believe in earning your worth and doing the job right. And, when you come right down to it, that's what they're here for.
Sally offered to pick them up at the bus station, but the aunts would have none of that. They can get around just fine on their own. They prefer to come to a place slowly, and that's what they're doing now. The lawns are wet, and the air is motionless and thick, the way it always is before a storm. A haze hangs over the houses and the chimney tops. The aunts stand in Sally's driveway, between the Honda and Jimmy's Oldsmobile, their black suitcases set down beside them. They close their eyes, to get a sense of this place. In the poplar trees, the sparrows watch with interest. The spiders stop spinning their webs. The rain will begin after midnight, on this the aunts agree. It will fall in sheets, like rivers of glass. It will fall until the whole world seems silver and turned upside down. You can feel such things when you have rheumatism, or when you've lived as long as the aunts have.
Inside the house, Gillian feels twitchy, the way people do before lightning is about to strike. She's wearing old blue jeans and a black cotton shirt, and her hair's uncombed. She's like a kid who refuses to dress up for company. But the company's arrived anyway; Gillian can feel their presence. The air is as dense as chocolate cake, the good kind, made without flour. The ceiling light in the living room has begun to sway; its metal chain makes a clackety sound, as if somewhere a top had been spun too fast. Gillian yanks the curtains back and takes a look.
"Oh, my god," she says. "The aunts are in the driveway."
Outside, the air is turning even thicker, like soup, and it has a yellow, sulfury odor, which some people find rather pleasant and others experience as so revolting they slam their windows shut, then turn their air conditioners on high. By evening, the wind will be strong enough to carry off small dogs and toss children from their swing sets, but for now it's just a slight breeze. Linda Bennett has pulled into her driveway next door; when she gets out of her car, she has a bag of groceries balanced on her hip and she waves to the aunts with her free hand. Sally mentioned that some elderly relatives might arrive for a visit.
"They're a bit odd," Sally warned her next-door neighbor, but to Linda they look like sweet little old ladies.
Linda's daughter, who used to be Jessie and now calls herself Isabella, slides out of the passenger seat and wrinkles her nose—through which she has taken to wearing three silver rings—as if she smells something rotten. She looks over and sees the aunts studying Sally's house.
"Who are those old bats?" the so-called Isabella asks her mother.
Her words are carried across the lawn, each nasty syllable falling into Sally's driveway with a clatter. The aunts turn and look at Isabella with their clear gray eyes, and when they do she feels something absolutely weird in her fingers and her toes, a sensation so threatening and strange that she runs into the house, gets into bed, and pulls the covers over her head. It will be weeks before this girl mouths off to her mother, or anyone else, and even then she'll think twice, she'll reconsider, then rephrase, with a "Please" or a "Thank you" thrown in.
"Let me know if you need anything during your visit," Linda calls to Sally's aunts, and all at once she feels better than she has in years.
Sally has come to stand beside her sister, and she taps on the window to get the aunts' attention. The aunts look up and blink; and when they spy Sally and Gillian on the other side of the glass, they wave, just as they did when the girls first arrived at the airport in Boston. For Sally to see the aunts in her own driveway, however, is like seeing two worlds collide. It would be no less unusual for a meteorite to have landed beside the Oldsmobile, or for shooting stars to drift across the lawn, than it is to have the aunts here at Hast.
"Come on," Sally says, tugging on Gillian's sleeve, but Gillian just shakes her head no.
Gillian hasn't seen the aunts for eighteen years, and although they haven't aged as much as she, she never quite took notice of how old they were. She always thought of them together, a unit, and now she sees that Aunt Frances is nearly six inches taller than her sister, and that Aunt Bridget, whom they always called Aunt Jet, is actually cheerful and plump, like a little hen dressed up in black skirts and boots.
"I need time to process this," Gillian says.
"Two minutes had better be enough," Sally informs her, as she goes outside to welcome their guests.
"The aunts!" Kylie shouts when she sees they've arrived. She calls upstairs to Antonia, who rushes to join her, taking two steps at a time. The sisters make a dash for the open door, then realize that Gillian is still at the window.
"Come with us," Kylie says to her.
"Go on," Gillian advises the girls. "I'll be right here."
Kylie and Antonia hurry to the driveway and throw themselves at the aunts. They hoot and holler and dance the aunts around until they are all flushed and out of breath. When Sally phoned and explained about the problem in the yard, the aunts listened carefully, then assured her they'd be on the bus to New York as soon as they set out food for the last remaining cat, old Magpie. The aunts always kept their promises, and they still do. They believe that every problem has a solution, although it may not be the outcome that was originally hoped for or expected.
For instance, the aunts had never expected their own lives to be so completely altered by a single phone call in the middle of the night those many years ago. It was October and cold, and the big house was drafty; the sky outside was so gloomy it pushed down on anyone who dared to walk beneath it. The aunts had their schedule, to which they kept no matter what. They took their walk in the morning, then read and wrote in their journals, then had lunch—the same lunch every day—mashed parsnips and potatoes, noodle pudding, and apple tart for dessert. They napped in the afternoon and did their business at twilight, should anyone come to the back door. They always had their supper in the kitchen—beans and toast, soup and crackers—and they kept the lights turned low, to save on electricity. Every night they faced the dark, since they could never sleep.
Their hearts had been broken on the night those two brothers ran across the town green; they'd been broken so hard and so suddenly that the aunts never again allowed themselves to be taken by surprise, not by lightning, and certainly not by love. They believed in their schedules and very little else. Occasionally they would attend a town meeting, where their stern presence could easily sway a vote, or they'd visit the library, where the sight of their black skirts and boots induced silence in even the rowdiest book borrowers.
The aunts assumed they knew their life and all that it would bring. They were well acquainted with their own fates, or so they believed. They were quite convinced nothing could come between their present and their own quiet deaths, in bed, of course, from pneumonia and complications of the flu at the ages of ninety-two and ninety-four. But they must have missed something, or perhaps it's simply that one can never predict one's own fortune. The aunts never imagined that a small and serious voice would phone in the middle of the night, demanding to be taken in, disrupting everything. That was the end of parsnips and potatoes at lunch. Instead, the aunts got used to peanut butter and jelly, graham crackers and alphabet soup, Mallomar cookies and handfuls of M&M's. How odd that they would be grateful to have had to deal with sore throats and nightmares. Without those two girls, they would never have had to run down the hall in their bare feet in the middle of the night to see which one had a stomach virus and which one was sleeping tight.
Frances comes to the porch to better assess her niece's house.
"Modern, but very nice," she announces.
Sally feels the sting of pride. It's as high a compliment as Aunt Frances would ever give; it means that Sally's done it all on her own, and done well. Sally's grateful for any kind words or deeds; she can use them. She was awake all night because every time she closed her eyes she'd see Gary so clearly it was as if he were there beside her at the kitchen table, in the easy chair, in her bed. She has a tape that keeps playing inside her head, over and over, and she can't seem to stop it. Gary Hallet is touching her right now, he has his hands on her as she leans to grab her aunt's suitcase. When she tries to lift this piece of luggage, Sally is shocked to discover she hasn't the strength to do it alone. Something inside rattles like beads, or bricks, or perhaps even bones.
"For the problem in the yard," Aunt Frances explains.
"Ah," Sally says.
Aunt Jet comes over and links her arm through Sally's. During the summer that Jet turned sixteen, two local boys killed themselves for her love. One tied iron bars to his ankles and drowned himself in a quarry. The other was done in on the train tracks outside of town by the 10:02 to Boston. Of all the Owens women, Jet Owens was the most beautiful, and she never even noticed. She preferred cats to human beings and turned down every offer from the men who fell in love with her. The only one she ever cared for was that boy who was hit by lightning when he and his brother went tearing off across the town green to prove how brave and daring they were. Sometimes, late at night, Jet and Frances both hear the sound of those boys laughing as they run through the rain, then stumble into the darkness. Their voices are still young and filled with expectation, exactly as they sounded at the moment they were struck down.
Lately, Aunt Jet has to carry a black cane that has a carved raven's head; she's bent over with arthritis, but she never complains about the way her back feels when she unlaces her boots at the end of the day. Each morning she washes with the black soap she and Frances mix up twice a year, and her complexion is close to perfect. She works in her garden and can remember the Latin name of every plant that grows there. But not a day goes by that she doesn't think about the boy she loved. Not a moment passes that she doesn't wish that time were a movable entity and that she could go backward and kiss that boy again.
"We're so glad to be here," Jet announces.
Sally smiles a beautiful sad smile. "I should have invited you a long time ago. I didn't think either of you would like it."
"That just goes to show that you never can tell about a person by guessing," Frances informs her niece. "That's why language was invented. Otherwise, we'd all be like dogs, sniffing each other to find out where we stood."
"You're absolutely right," Sally agrees.
The suitcases are lugged inside, which is no easy job. Antonia and Kylie shout, "Heave ho!" and work together, under the aunts' watchful eyes. Waiting by the window, Gillian has considered escaping through the back door so she won't have to face the aunts' critique on how she's messed up her life. But when Kylie and Antonia lead the aunts inside, Gillian is standing in the very same spot, her pale hair electrified.
Some things, when they change, never do return to the way they once were. Butterflies, for instance, and women who've been in love with the wrong man too often. The aunts cluck their tongues as soon as they see this grown woman who once was their little girl. They may not have had regular dinnertimes or made certain that clean clothes were folded in the bureaus, but they were there. They were the ones Gillian turned to that first year, when the other children at nursery school pulled her hair and called her the witch-girl. Gillian never told Sally how awful it was, how they persecuted her, and she was just three years old. It was embarrassing, that much she knew even then. It was something you didn't admit to.
Every day Gillian came home and swore to Sally that she'd had a lovely afternoon, she'd played with blocks and paints, and fed the bunny that eyed the children sadly from a cage near the coat closet. But Gillian couldn't lie to the aunts when they came to fetch her. At the end of each day her hair was in tangles and her face and legs were scratched red. The aunts advised her to ignore the other children—to read her books and play her games by herself and march over to inform the teacher if anyone was nasty or rude. Even then, Gillian believed she was worthy of the awful treatment she got, and she never did go running to the teacher and tattle. She tried her best to keep it inside.
The aunts, however, could tell what was happening from the sorry slope of Gillian's shoulders as she pulled her sweater on and because she couldn't sleep at night. Most of the children eventually tired of teasing Gillian, but several continued to torment her—whispering "witch" every time she was near, spilling grape juice on her new shoes, grabbing fistfuls of her hair and pulling with all their might—and they did so until the Christmas party.
All the children's parents attended the party, bringing cookies or cakes or bowls of eggnog sprinkled with nutmeg. The aunts came late, wearing their black coats. Gillian had hoped they would remember to bring a box of chocolate chip cookies, or perhaps a Sara Lee cake, but the aunts weren't interested in desserts. They went directly to the worst of the children, the boys who pulled hair, the girls who called names. The aunts didn't have to use curses or herbs, or vow any sort of punishment. They merely stood beside the snack table, and every child who'd been mean to Gillian was immediately sick to his or her stomach. These children ran to their parents and begged to be taken home, then stayed in bed for days, shivering beneath wool blankets, so queasy and filled with remorse that their complexions took on a faint greenish tinge, and their skins gave off the sour scent that always accompanies a guilty conscience.
After the Christmas party, the aunts took Gillian home and sat her down on the sofa in the parlor, the velvet one with the wooden lion's feet whose claws terrified Gillian. They told her how sticks and stones could break bones, but taunting and name-calling were only for fools. Gillian heard them, but she didn't really listen. She put too much worth in what other people thought and not enough in her own opinion. The aunts have always known that Gillian sometimes needs extra help defending herself. As they study her, their gray eyes are bright and sharp. They see the lines on her face that someone else might not notice; they can tell what she's been through.
"I look awful, right?" Gillian says. There's a catch in her voice. A minute ago she was eighteen and climbing out her bedroom window, and now here she is, all used up.
The aunts cluck louder and come to embrace Gillian. It is so unlike their usual cool style that a sob escapes from Gillian's throat. To their credit, the aunts have learned a thing or two since they were snagged into raising two little girls. They've watched Oprah; they know what can happen when you hide your love away. As far as they're concerned, Gillian is more attractive than ever, but then the Owens women have always been known for their beauty, as well as the foolish choices they make when they're young. In the twenties, their cousin Jinx, whose watercolors can be found in the Museum of Fine Arts, was too headstrong to listen to a word anyone else said; she got drunk on cold champagne, threw her satin shoes over a high stone wall, then danced on broken glass until dawn and never walked again. The most beloved of the great-aunts, Barbara Owens, married a man with a skull as thick as a mule's who refused to have electricity or plumbing put into their house, insisting such things were fads. Their favorite cousin, April Owens, lived in the Mojave Desert for twelve years, collecting spiders in jars filled with formaldehyde. A decade or two on the rocks gives a person character. Although she'd never believe it, those lines in Gillian's face are the most beautiful part about her. They reveal what she's gone through and what she's survived and who exactly she is, deep inside.
"Well," Gillian says when she's done crying. She wipes at her eyes with her hands. "Who would have thought I'd get so emotional?"
The aunts settle in, and then Sally pours them each a small glass of gin and bitters, which they always appreciate, and which they particularly like to get them started when there's work to be done.
"Let's talk about the fellow in the backyard," Frances says. "Jimmy."
"Do we have to?" Gillian groans.
"We do," Aunt Jet is sorry to say. "Just little things about him. For instance—how did he die?"
Antonia and Kylie are gulping diet Cokes and listening like crazy. The hair on their arms is standing on end; this could get really interesting.
Sally has brought a pot of mint tea to the table, along with a chipped cup her daughters gave her one Mother's Day, which has always been her favorite. Sally can't drink coffee anymore; the scent of it conjures Gary up so completely she could have sworn he was sitting at the table when Gillian was pouring water through the filter this morning. She tells herself it's the lack of caffeine that's been making her lethargic, but that's not what's wrong. She's been unusually quiet today, moody enough to make Antonia and Kylie take notice. She seems so different. The girls have had the feeling that the woman who was once their mother is gone forever. It's not only that her black hair is loose, instead of being pulled away from her face; it's how sad she looks, how far away.
"I don't think we should discuss this in front of the children," Sally says.
But the children are riveted; they'll die if they don't hear what happened next; they simply won't be able to stand it.
"Mother!" they cry.
They're almost women. And there's not a thing Sally can do about it. So she shrugs and nods to Gillian, giving her the okay.
"Well," Gillian says, "I guess I killed him."
The aunts exchange a look. In their opinion this is one thing Gillian is not capable of. "How?" they ask. This is the girl who would scream if she stepped on a spider in her bare feet. If she pricked her finger and drew blood she'd announce she was ready to faint and then proceed to fall on the floor.
Gillian admits she used nightshade, a plant she always had contempt for when she was a child, pretending it was ragweed so she could give it a good pull when the aunts asked her to clear out the garden. When the aunts ask for the dosage she used and Gillian tells them, the aunts nod, pleased. Exactly as they thought. If the aunts know anything, they know nightshade. Such a dosage wouldn't kill a fox terrier, let alone a six-foot-tall man.
"But he's dead," Gillian says, stunned to hear that her remedy could not have killed him. She turns to Sally. "I know he was dead."
"Definitely dead," Sally agrees.
"Not by your hand." Frances could not be more certain of it. "Not unless he was a chipmunk."
Gillian throws her arms around the aunts. Aunt Frances's announcement has filled her with hope. It's a silly and ridiculous thing to possess at her age, particularly on this awful night, but Gillian doesn't give a damn. Better late than never, that's the way she sees it.
"I'm innocent," Gillian cries.
Sally and the aunts exchange a look; they don't know about that.
"In this case," Gillian adds when she sees their expressions.
"What killed him?" Sally asks the aunts.
"It could have been anything." Jet shrugs.
"Alcohol," Kylie proposes. "Years of it."
"His heart," Antonia suggests.
Frances announces that they may as well stop this guessing game; they'll never know what killed him, but they're still left with a body in the yard, and that is why the aunts have brought along their recipe for getting rid of the many nasty things one can find in a garden—slugs or aphids, the bloody remains of a crow, torn apart by his rivals, or the sort of weeds that are so poisonous it's impossible to pull them by hand, even when wearing thick leather gloves. The aunts know precisely how much lye to add to the lime, much more than they include when they boil up their black soap, which is especially beneficial to a woman's skin if she washes with it every night. Bars of the aunts' soap, wrapped in clear cellophane, can be found in health-food stores in Cambridge and in several specialty shops along Newbury Street, and this has bought not only a new roof for their old house but a state-of-the-art septic system as well.
At home the aunts always use the big cast-iron cauldron, which has been in the kitchen since Maria Owens first built the house, but here Sally's largest pasta pot will have to do. They'll have to boil the ingredients for three and a half hours, so even though Kylie is always nervous that someone down at Del Vecchio's will recognize her voice as the one belonging to the wiseacre who had all those pizzas delivered to Mr. Frye's house a while back, she phones in and asks for two large pies to be delivered, one with anchovies, for the aunts, the other cheese and mushroom with extra sauce.
The mixture on the back burner starts to bubble, and by the time the delivery boy arrives, the sky has grown stormy and dark, although beneath the thick layers of clouds is a perfect white moon. The delivery boy knocks three times and hopes that Antonia Owens, whom he once sat next to in algebra, will appear. Instead, it's Aunt Frances who yanks open the door. The cuffs of her sleeves are smoky, from all the lye she's been measuring, and her eyes are as cold as iron.
"What?" she demands of the boy, who has already clutched the pizzas tightly to his chest simply because of the sight of her.
"Pizza delivery," he manages to say.
"This is your job?" Frances wants to know. "Delivering food?"
"That's right," the boy says. He thinks he can see Antonia in the house; there's somebody beautiful with red hair, at any rate. Frances is glaring at him. "That's right, ma'am," he amends.
Frances reaches into her skirt pocket for her change purse and counts out eighteen dollars and thirty-three cents, which she considers highway robbery.
"Well, if it's your job, don't expect a tip," she tells the boy.
"Hey, Josh," Antonia calls as she comes to collect the pizzas. She's wearing an old smock over her black T-shirt and leggings. Her hair has turned to ringlets in all this humidity and her pale skin looks creamy and cool. The delivery boy is unable to speak in her presence, although when he gets back to the restaurant he'll talk about her for a good hour before the kitchen staff tells him to shut up. Antonia laughs as she closes the door. She's gotten back some of whatever she'd lost. Attraction, she now understands, is a state of mind.
"Pizza," Antonia announces, and they all sit down to dinner in spite of the awful smell coming from the aunts' mixture boiling on the rear burner of the stove. The storm is rattling the windowpanes and the thunder is so near it can shake the ground. One big flash of lightning, and half the neighborhood has lost its electricity; in houses all along the street, people are searching for flashlights and hurricane candles, or just giving up and going to sleep.
"That's good luck," Aunt Jet says when their electricity goes as well. "We'll be the light in the darkness."
"Find a candle," Sally suggests.
Kylie gets a candle from the shelf near the sink. When she passes the stove she holds her nose closed with her fingers.
"Boy, does that stink," she says of the aunts' mixture.
"It's supposed to," Jet says, pleased.
"It always does," her sister agrees.
Kylie returns and places the candle in the center of the table, then lights it so they can go on with their supper, which is interrupted by the doorbell.
"It better not be that delivery boy back for more," Frances says now. "I'll give him a real piece of my mind."
"I'll get it." Gillian goes to the door and swings it open.
Ben Frye is on the porch, wearing a yellow rain slicker; he's holding a box of white hurricane candles and a lantern. Just seeing him makes a chill go down Gillian's spine. From the first, she's been figuring that Ben was taking his life in his hands each time he was with her. With her luck and her history, anything that could go wrong would. She'd been sure she'd bring disaster to whoever loved her, but that was back when she was a woman who killed her boyfriend in an Oldsmobile, now she's someone else. She leans out the front door and kisses Ben on the mouth. She kisses him in a way that proves that if he was ever thinking of getting out of this, he'd better stop thinking right now.
"Who invited you here?" Gillian says, but she has her arms around him; she's got that sugary smell anyone who gets too close to her can't help but notice.
"I was worried about you," Ben says. "They can call this thing a storm, but it's really a hurricane."
Tonight, Ben has left Buddy alone to bring the candles over, even though he knows how anxious thunder makes the rabbit. That's what happens when Ben wants to see Gillian, he has to go on and do it, no matter what the consequences. Still, he's so unused to being spontaneous that whenever he does something like this he has a slight ringing in his ears, not that he cares. When Ben returns to his house he's bound to find a telephone book shredded or the soles chewed off his favorite running shoes, but it's worth it to be with Gillian.
"Get out while the going's good," Gillian tells him. "My aunts are here from Massachusetts."
"Great," Ben says, and before Gillian can stop him he's inside the house. Gillian tugs at the sleeve of his rain slicker, but he's on his way to greet their guests. The aunts have serious business ahead of them; they'll flip their lids if Ben careens into the kitchen assuming he's about to meet two dear old ladies. They'll rise from their chairs and stomp their feet and turn their cold gray eyes in his direction.
"They arrived this afternoon and they're exhausted," Gillian says. "This is not a good idea. They don't like company. Plus, they're ancient."
Ben Frye pays no attention, and why should he? The aunts are Gillian's family, and that's all he needs to know. He lopes right into the kitchen, where Antonia and Kylie and Sally stop eating the minute they see him; quickly they turn to see the aunts' reaction. Ben doesn't catch on to their anxiety any more than he notices the fiery scent rising from the pot on the stove. He must presume the smell emanates from some special cleaning fluid or detergent, or perhaps some small creature, a baby squirrel or an old toad, has curled up to die underneath the back doorstep.
Ben goes over to the aunts, reaches into the sleeve of his rain slicker, and pulls out a bunch of roses. Aunt Jet accepts them with pleasure. "Lovely," she says.
Aunt Frances runs a petal between her thumb and forefinger to verify that the roses are real. They are, but that doesn't mean Frances is so easily impressed.
"Any more tricks?" she says in a voice that can turn a man's blood to ice.
Ben smiles his beautiful smile, the one that made Gillian weak in the knees from the start and that now reminds the aunts of the boys they once knew. He reaches behind Aunt Frances's head, and before they know it, he has pulled from thin air a chiffon scarf the color of sapphires, which he proudly presents.
"I couldn't accept this," Frances says, but her tone isn't quite so cool as before, and when no one's looking, she loops the scarf around her neck. The color is perfect for her; her eyes look like lake water, clear and gray-blue. Ben makes himself comfortable, grabs a piece of pizza, and begins to ask Jet about their trip down from Massachusetts. That's when Frances signals to Gillian to come close.
"Don't screw this one up," she tells her niece.
"I don't intend to," Gillian assures her.
Ben stays until eleven. He fixes instant chocolate pudding for dessert, then teaches Kylie and Antonia and Aunt Jet how to build a house of cards and how to make it fall down with a single puff of air.
"You got lucky this time," Sally tells her sister.
"You think it was luck?" Gillian grins.
"Yeah," Sally says.
"No way," Gillian says. "It took years of practice."
Just then the aunts both tilt their heads at the very same time and make a very little noise low in their throats, a kind of click so close to silence that anyone who wasn't listening carefully might mistake it for the faint call of a cricket or the sigh of a mouse beneath the floorboards.
"It's time," Aunt Frances says.
"We have family business to discuss," Jet tells Ben as she leads him to the door.
Aunt Jet's voice is always sweet, yet the tone isn't one someone would dare to disobey. Ben grabs his rain slicker and waves to Gillian.
"I'll call you in the morning," he declares. "I'll come over for breakfast."
"Don't screw this one up," Aunt Jet tells Gillian after she's closed the door behind Ben.
"I won't," Gillian assures her as well. She goes to the window and takes a look at the backyard. "It's awful tonight."
The wind is tearing shingles from the roofs, and every cat in the neighborhood has demanded to be let in or has taken refuge in a window well, to shiver and yowl.
"Maybe we should wait," Sally ventures.
"Bring the pot around back," Aunt Jet tells Kylie and Antonia.
The candle in the center of the table casts a circle of wavery light. Aunt Jet takes Gillian's hand in her own. "We have to see to this now. You don't put off dealing with a ghost."
"What do you mean, a ghost?" Gillian says. "We want to make certain the body stays buried."
"Fine," Aunt Frances says. "If that's how you want to look at it."
Gillian wishes she'd had a gin and bitters herself when the aunts did. Instead, she finishes the last of her cold coffee, which has been sitting in a cup on the counter since late afternoon. By tomorrow morning the creek behind the high school will be deep as a river; toads will have to scramble for higher ground; children won't think twice about diving into the warm, murky water, even if they're dressed in their Sunday clothes and wearing their best pair of shoes.
"Okay," Gillian says. She knows her aunts are talking about more than a body; it's the spirit of the man, that's what's haunting them. "Fine," she tells the aunts, and she swings open the back door.
Antonia and Kylie carry the pot out to the yard. The rain is quite near; they can taste it in the air. The aunts have already had the girls bring their suitcase over to the hedge of thorns. They stand close together, and when the wind rustles their skirts the fabric makes a moaning sound.
"This dissolves what once was flesh," Aunt Frances says.
She signals to Gillian.
"Me?" Gillian takes a step backward, but there's no place to go. Sally is right behind her.
"Go on," Sally tells her.
Antonia and Kylie are holding on to the heavy pot; the wind is so strong that the hedge of thorns whips out, as if trying to cut them. The wasps' nests sway back and forth. It is definitely time.
"Oh, brother," Gillian whispers to Sally. "I don't know if I can do this."
Antonia's fingers are turning white with the effort she needs not to drop the pot. "This is really heavy," she says in a shaky voice.
"Believe me," Sally tells Gillian. "You can."
If there's one thing Sally is now certain of, it's how you can amaze yourself by the things you're willing to do. Those are her daughters, the girls she wanted to lead normal lives, and she's allowing them to stand over a pile of bones with a spaghetti pot filled mostly with lye. What has happened to her? What has snapped? Where is that logical woman, the one people could depend on, day after day? She can't stop thinking about Gary, no matter how hard she tries. She actually called the Hide-A-Way to ask if he'd checked out, and he has. He's gone, and here she is, thinking about him. Last night, she dreamed of the desert. She dreamed the aunts had sent her a cutting from an apple tree in their yard and that it bloomed without water. And in her dream the horses that ate apples from that tree ran faster than all the others, and any man who took a bite from a pie Sally fixed with these apples was bound to be hers, for life.
Sally and Gillian take the pot from the girls, although Gillian keeps her eyes closed as they turn it over and pour out the lye. The damp earth sizzles and is hot; as the mixture seeps deeper into the ground, a mist appears. It's the color of regret, it's the color of heartbreak, the gray of doves and early morning.
"Step back," the aunts tell them, for the earth has begun to bubble. The roots of the thornbushes are being dissolved by the mixture, as are stones and beetles, leather and bones. They can't move away fast enough, but still something is happening beneath Kylie's feet.
"Damn it," Sally cries.
Right under Kylie's feet the earth is shifting, falling in on itself, like a landslide, going down. Kylie feels it, she knows it, yet she freezes. She's falling into a hole, she's falling fast, but Antonia reaches to grab the back of her shirt and then pulls. She wrenches Kylie back so hard and so fast that Antonia can hear her own elbow pop.
The girls stand there, out of breath and terrified. Without realizing it, Gillian has latched on to Sally's arm; she's holding on so tight that Sally will have the marks of her sister's fingers on her skin for days afterward. Now they all step back. They do it quickly. They do it without having to be told. A thread of blood-red vapor is rising from the place where Jimmy's heart would have been, a small tornado of spite that disappears as it meets the air.
"That was him," Kylie says of the red vapor, and sure enough, they can smell beer and boot polish, they can feel the air grow as hot as embers in an ashtray. And then nothing. Nothing at all. Gillian can't be sure if she's crying, or if the rain has begun. "He's really gone," Kylie tells her.
But the aunts are taking no chances. They've carried along twenty blue stones inside their largest suitcase, stones Maria Owens had brought to the house on Magnolia Street more than two hundred years ago. Stones such as these form the path in the aunts' garden, but there were extras stored beside the potting shed, enough to fashion a small patio in the spot where the lilacs once grew. Now that the hedge of thorns is nothing but ashes, it's easy for the Owens women to put down a circle of stones. The patio won't be fancy, but it will be wide enough for a small wrought-iron table and four chairs. Some of the little girls in the neighborhood will beg to have tea parties out here, and when their mothers laugh and ask why this patio is better than their own, the little girls will insist the blue stones are lucky.
There's no such thing as luck, their mothers will tell them. Drink your orange juice, have your cakes, keep your party in your own backyard. And yet, every time their mothers' backs are turned, the little girls will drag their dolls and teddy bears and china tea sets over to the Owens patio. "Good luck," they'll whisper as they clink their cups together in a toast. "Good luck," they'll say as the stars rise above them in the sky.
Some people believe that every question has a logical answer; there's an order to everything, which is neat and based purely on empirical evidence. But really, what could it be but luck that the rain doesn't begin in earnest until their work is done. The Owens women have mud under their fingernails, and their arms ache from carting those heavy stones. Antonia and Kylie will sleep well tonight, as will the aunts, who have been plagued by insomnia from time to time. They will sleep the whole night through, even though lightning will strike in twelve separate places on Long Island before the storm is over. A house in East Meadow will be burned to the ground. A surfer in Long Beach who always longed for hurricanes and big waves will be fried. A maple tree that has grown in the Y field for three hundred years will be split in two and will have to be taken down with chain saws to make certain it won't collapse on top of the Little League team.