"But perhaps they have had this vision, Amelia."
   "Do you believe in God now?"
   "I have never disbelieved, though I, myself, have never had the pleasure of meeting Him. Of course, with the destruction of the universe, perhaps He was also destroyed…"
   "Be serious, Jherek. These poor people, my husband amongst them (doubtless a willing victim, I'll not deny) have been duped!"
   "Duped?"
   "Almost certainly by your Lord Jagged."
   "Why should Jagged — you mean that Jagged is God?"
   "No. I mean that he plays at God. I suspected as much. Harold has described the vision — they all describe it. A fiery globe announcing itself as 'The Lord thy God' and calling them His prophets, saying that He would release them from this place of desolation so that they could return to the place from which they had come to warn others — and so on and so on."
   "But what possible reason would Jagged have for deceiving them in that way?"
   "Merely a cruel joke."
   "Cruel? I have never seen them happier. I am tempted to join in. I cannot understand you, Amelia. Once you tried to convince me as they are convinced. Now I am prepared to be convinced, you dissuade me!"
   "You are deliberately obtuse."
   "Never that, Amelia."
   "I must help Harold. He must be warned of the deception."
 
They had begun another hymn, louder than the first.
There is a dreadful Hell,
And everlasting pains;
There sinners must with devils dwell
In darkness, fire, and chains.
 
   He tried to speak through it, but she covered her ears, shaking her head and refusing to listen as he implored her to return with him.
 
"We must discuss what has been happening to us…" It was useless.
O save us, Lord, from that foul path,
Down which the sinners tread;
Consigned to flames like so much chaff;
There is no greater dread.
 
   Jherek regretted that this was not one of the hymns Amelia Underwood had taught him when they had first lived together at his ranch. He should have liked to have joined in, since it was not possible to communicate with her. He hoped they would sing his favourite — All Things Bright and Beautiful — but somehow guessed they would not. He found the present one not to his taste, either in tune (it was scarcely more than a drone) or in words which, he thought, were somewhat in contrast to the expressions on the faces of the singers. As soon as the hymn was over, Jherek lifted up his head and began to sing in his high, boyish voice:
 
" O Paradise! O Paradise!
Who doth not crave for rest?
Who would not seek the happy land
Where they that loved are blest;
Where loyal hearts and true
Stand ever in the light,
All rapture through and through,
In God's most holy sight.
O Paradise! O Paradise!
The world is growing old;
Who would not be at rest and free
Where love is never cold… "
 
   "Excellent sentiments, Mr. Carnelian." Harold Underwood's tone denied his words. He seemed upset. "However, we were in the middle of giving thanks for our salvation…"
   "Bad manners? I am deeply sorry. It is just that I was so moved…"
   "Ha!" said Mr. Underwood. "Though we have witnessed a miracle today, I cannot believe that it is possible to convert one of Satan's own hierarchy. You shall not deceive us now!"
   "But you are deceived, Harold!" cried his wife. "I am sure of it!"
   "Listen not to temptation, brothers," Harold Underwood told the policemen. "Even now they seek to divert us from the true way."
   "I think you'd better be getting along, sir," said Inspector Springer to Jherek. "This is a private meeting and I shouldn't be surprised if you're not infringing the Law of Trespass. Certainly you could be said to be Causing a Disturbance in a Public Place."
   "Did you really see a vision of God, Inspector Springer?" Jherek asked him.
   "We did, sir."
   "Amen," said Sergeant Sherwood and the twelve constables.
   "Amen," said Harold Underwood. "The Lord has given us the Word and we shall take the Word unto all the peoples of the world."
   "I'm sure you'll be welcome everywhere." Jherek was eager to encourage. "The Duke of Queens was saying to me only the other day that there was a great danger of becoming bored, without outside stimulus, such as we used to get. It is quite possible, Mr. Underwood, that you will convert us all."
   "We return to our own world, sir," Sergeant Sherwood told him mildly, "as soon as we can."
   "We have been into the very bowels of Hell and yet were saved!" cried one of the constables.
   "Amen," said Harold Underwood absently. "Now, if you'll kindly allow us to continue with our meeting…"
   "How do you intend to return to 1896, Harold?" implored Mrs. Underwood. "Who will take you?"
   "The Lord," her husband told her, "will provide." He added, in his old, prissy voice: "I see you appear at last in your true colours, Amelia."
   She blushed as she stared down at her dress. "A party," she murmured.
   He pursed his lips and looked away from her so that he might glare at Jherek Carnelian. "Your master still has power here, I suppose, so I cannot command you…"
   "If we're interrupting, I apologize again." Jherek bowed. "I must say, Mr. Underwood, that you seemed rather happier, in some ways, before your vision."
   "I have new responsibilities, Mr. Carnelian."
   "The 'ighest sort," agreed Inspector Springer.
   "Amen," said Sergeant Sherwood and the twelve constables. Their helmets nodded in unison.
   "You are a fool, Harold!" Amelia said, her voice trembling. "You have not seen God! The one who deceives you is closer to Satan!"
   A peculiar, self-congratulatory smile appeared on Harold Underwood's features. "Oh, really? You say this, yet you did not experience the vision. We have been chosen, Amelia, by God to warn the world of the terrors to come if it continues in its present course. What's this? Are you jealous, perhaps, that you are not one of the chosen, because you did not keep your faith and failed to do your duty?"
   She gave a sudden cry, as if physically wounded. Jherek took her in his arms, glaring back at Underwood. "She is right, you know. You are a cruel person, Harold Underwood. Tormented, you would torment us all!"
   "Ha!"
   "Amen," said Inspector Springer automatically. "I really" must warn you again that you're doing yourself no good if you persist in these attempts to disrupt our meeting. We are empowered, not only by the 'Ome Secretary 'imself, but by the 'Osts of 'Eaven, to deal with would-be trouble-makers as we see fit." He gave the last few words special emphasis and placed his fists on his waistcoated hips (his jacket was not in evidence, though his bowler hat was still on his head). "Get it?"
   "Oh, Jherek, we must go!" Amelia was close to tears. "We must go home."
   "Ha!"
   As Jherek led her away the new missionaries stared after them for only a moment or two before returning to their service. They walked together up the yellow-brown metal pathway, hearing the voices raised again in song:
 
Christian! seek not yet repose,
Hear thy guardian Angel say;
Thou art in the midst of foes;
Watch and pray.
Principalities and powers,
Mustering their unseen array,
Wait for thy unguarded hours;
Watch and pray.
Gird thy heavenly armour on,
Wear it ever night and day;
Ambush'd lies the evil one;
Watch and pray…
 
   They came to where they had left the locomotive and, as she clambered onto the footplate, her hem in tatters, her clothes stained, she said tearfully. "Oh, Jherek, if there is a Hell, then surely I deserve to be consigned there…"
   "You do not blame yourself for what has happened to your husband, Amelia?"
   "Who else shall I blame?"
   "You were blaming Jagged," he reminded her.
   "Jagged's machinations are one thing; my culpability is another. I should never have left him. I have betrayed him. He has gone mad with grief."
   "Because he loses you?"
   "Oh, no — because his pride is attacked. Now he finds consolation in religious mania."
   "You have offered to stay with him."
   "I know. The damage is done, I suppose. Yet I have a duty to him, perhaps more so, now."
   "Aha."
   They began to rise up over the city. Another silence had grown between them. He tried to break it:
   "You were right, Amelia. In my wanderings I found Brannart. He plots something with the Lat."
   But she would not reply. Instead, she began to sob. When he went to comfort her, she shrugged him away.
   "Amelia?"
   She continued to sob until the scene of her party came in sight. There were still guests there, Jherek could see, but few. The Iron Orchid had not been sufficient to make them stay — they wanted Amelia.
   "Shall we rejoin our guests…?"
   She shook her head. He turned the locomotive and made for the thatched roof of their house, visible behind the cypresses and the poplars. He landed on the lawn and immediately she ran from the locomotive to the door. She was still sobbing as she ran up the stairs to her apartment. Jherek heard a door close. He sat at the bottom of the stairs pondering on the nature of this new, all-consuming feeling of despair which threatened to rob him of the ability to move, but he was incapable of any real thought. He was wounded, he knew self-pity, he grieved for her in her pain and he, who had always expressed himself in terms of action (her wish had ever been his command, even if he had misinterpreted her occasionally), could think of nothing, not the simplest gesture, which might please her and ease their mutual misery.
   After some time he went slowly to his bed.
   Outside, beyond the house, the great rivers of blood still fell with unchecked force over the black cliffs, filling the swirling lake where cryptic monsters swam and on which obsidian islands still bobbed, their dark green fleshy foliage rustling in a hot, sweet wind; but Mrs. Amelia Underwood's piece-de-resistance had been abandoned long since by her forgotten guests.

25. The Call to Duty

   For the first time in his long life Jherek Carnelian, whose body could always be modified so that it did not need sleep, knew insomnia. Oblivion was his only demand, but it refused to come. Line after line of thought developed in his brain and each line led nowhere and had to be cut off. He considered seeking Jagged out, yet something stopped him. It was Amelia, only Amelia — Amelia was the only company he desired and yet (he must admit this to himself, here in the dark) presently he feared her. Thus in his mind he performed a forward step only, immediately thereafter, to take a backward — forward, backward — a horrid little dance of indecision which brought, in due course, his first taste of self-disgust. He had always followed his impulses, without a grain of self-consciousness, without the suggestion of a question, as did his peers at the End of Time. Yet now it seemed he had two impulses; he was caught like a steel ball between magnets, equidistant. His identity and his actions had hitherto been one — so now his identity came under siege. If he had two impulses, why, he must be two people. And if he were two people, then which was the worthwhile one, which should be abandoned as soon as possible? So Jherek discovered the old night-game of see-saw, in which a third Jherek, none too firm in his resolves, tried to hold judgement on two others, sliding first this way, then the other — "I shall demand from her…" and "She deserves better than I…" were two beginnings new to Jherek, though doubtless familiar to many of Mrs. Underwood's contemporaries, particularly those who were frustrated in their relationships with the object of their affections, or were in a position of having to choose between old loyalties and fresh ones, between an ailing father, say, and a handsome suitor or, indeed, between an unlovable husband and a lover who offered marriage. It was halfway through this exercise that Jherek discovered the trick of transference — what if she experienced these torments, even as he experienced them? And immediately self-pity fled. He must go to her and comfort her. But no — he deceived himself, merely wishing to influence her, to focus her attention on to his dilemma. And so the see-saw swung again, with the judging Jherek poorly balanced on the pivot.
   And so it might have continued until morning, had not she softly opened his door with a murmured query as to his wakefulness.
   "Oh, Amelia!" He sat up at once.
   "I have done you an injury," she whispered, though there was none to overhear. "My self-control deserted me today."
   "I am not quite sure what it is that you describe," he told her, turning on the lamp by his bed so that it shed just a fraction more light and he could see her haggard face, red with crying, "but you have done me no injury. It is I who have failed. I am useless to you."
   "You are brave and splendid — and innocent. I have said it before, Jherek: I have robbed you of that innocence."
   "I love you," he said. "I am a fool. I am unworthy of you."
   "No, no, my dear. I am a slave to my upbringing and I know that upbringing to be narrow, unimaginative, even brutalizing — ah, and it is essentially cynical, though I could never have admitted it. But you, dearest, are without a grain of cynicism, though I thought at first you and your world were nothing else but cynical. And now I see I am on the verge of teaching you my own habits — cynicism, hypocrisy, fear of emotional involvement disguised as self-denial — ah, there is a monstrous range…"
   "I asked you to teach me these things."
   "You did not know what you asked."
   He stretched a hand to her and she took it, though she remained standing. Her hand was cold, and it shook a little.
   "I am still unable to understand all that you say," he told her.
   "I pray that you never shall, my dear."
   "You love me? I was afraid I had done something to destroy your love."
   "I love you, Jherek".
   "I wish only to change for you, to become whatever you wish me to be…"
   "I would not have you change, Jherek Carnelian." A little smile appeared.
   "Yet, you said…"
   "You accused me, earlier, of not being myself." With a sigh she sat down upon the edge of his bed. She still wore the tattered oriental dress, but she had removed her feathers from her hair, which was restored to its natural colour, though not its original cut. Most of the paint was gone from her face. It was evident to him that she had slept no better than had he. His hand squeezed hers and she sighed for a second time. "Of not being your Amelia," she added.
   "Not accused — but I was confused…"
   "I tried, I suppose, to please you, but could not please myself. It seemed so wicked…" This smile was broader and it mocked her own choice of words. "I have been trying so hard, Jherek, to enjoy your world for what it is. Yet I am constantly haunted first by my own sense of duty, which I have no means of expressing, and second by the knowledge of what your world is — a travesty, artificially maintained, denying mortality and therefore defying destiny."
   "Surely that is only one way of seeing it, Amelia."
   "I agree completely. I describe only my emotional response. Intellectually I can see many sides, many arguments. But I am, in this, as in so many other things, Jherek, a child of Bromley. You have given me these power-rings and taught me how to use them — yet I am filled with a desire to grow a few marigolds, to cook a pie, to make a dress — oh, I feel embarrassed as I speak. It seems so silly, when I have all the power of an Olympian god at my disposal. It sounds merely sentimental, to my own ears. I cannot think what you must feel…"
   "I am not sure what sentimentality is, Amelia. I wish you to be happy, that is all. If that is where fulfilment lies for you, then do these things. They will delight me. You can teach me these arts."
   "They are scarcely arts. Indeed, they are only desirable when one is denied the opportunity to practise them." Her laughter was more natural, though still it shook. "You can join in, if you wish, but I would not have you miserable. You must continue to express yourself as you wish, in ways that fulfil your instincts."
   "As long as I can express myself the means is unimportant, Amelia. It is that frozen feeling that I fear. And it is true that I live for you, so that what pleases you pleases me."
   "I make too many demands," she said, pulling away. "And offer nothing."
   "Again you bewilder me."
   "It is a bad bargain, Jherek, my dear."
   "I was unaware that we bargained, Amelia. For what?"
   "Oh…" she seemed unable to answer. "For life itself, perhaps. For something…" She gasped, as if in pain, but then smiled again, gripping his hand tighter. "It is as if a tailor visits Eden and sees an opportunity for trade. No, I am too hard upon myself, I suppose. I lack the words…"
   "As do I, Amelia. If only I could find adequate phrases to tell you what I feel! But of one thing you must be certain. I love you absolutely." He flung back the bedclothes and sprang up, taking her hand to his breast. "Amelia, of that you must he assured!"
   He noticed that she was blushing, trying to speak, swallowing rapidly. She made a gulping noise.
   "What is it, my dear?"
   "Mr. Carnelian — Jherek — you — you…"
   "Yes, my love?" Solicitously.
   She broke free, making for the door. "You seem unaware that you are — Oh, heavens!"
   "Amelia!"
   "You are quite naked, my dear." She reached the door and sped through. "I love you, Jherek. I love you! I will see you in the morning. Goodnight."
   He sat down heavily upon his bed, scratching his knee and shaking his head, but he was smiling (if somewhat bewilderedly) when he stretched out again and pulled the sheets over himself and fell into a deep sleep.
   In the morning they breakfasted and were happy. Both had slept well, both chose to discuss little of the previous day's events, although Amelia expressed an intention of trying to discover if, in any museum in any of the old cities, there might be preserved seeds which she could plant. Jherek thought that there were one or two likely places where they could look.
   Shortly after breakfast, as she boiled water to wash the dishes, two visitors arrived. The Iron Orchid — in a surprisingly restrained gown of dark blue silk against which living butterflies beat dark blue wings, upon the arm of the bearded time-traveller, dressed, as always, in his Norfolk jacket and tweed plus-fours. That Amelia had set more than one fashion was obvious from the way in which the Iron Orchid demurely knocked upon the door and waited until Amelia, her hands quickly dried, her sleeves rolled down, answered it and smilingly admitted them to the sitting room.
   "I am so sorry, Iron Orchid, for yesterday's rudeness," began Amelia. "An instinct, I suppose. I was worried about Harold. We visited the city and were longer than we expected."
   The Iron Orchid listened patiently and with a hint of sardonic pleasure while Amelia's apologies ran their course.
   "My dear, I told them nothing. Your mysterious disappearance only served to give greater spice to a wonderful creation. I see that you have not yet disseminated it…"
   "Oh, dear. I shall do so presently."
   "Perhaps it should be left? A kind of monument?"
   "So close to the garden? I think not."
   "Your taste cannot be questioned. I merely suggested…"
   "You are very kind. Would you care for some tea?"
   "Excellent!" said the time-traveller. He appeared to be in fine spirits. He rubbed his hands together. "A decent cup of English tea would be most welcome, dear lady."
   They waited expectantly.
   "I will put the kettle on."
   "The kettle?" The Iron Orchid locked questioningly at the time-traveller.
   "The kettle!" he breathed, as if the words had mystic significance for him. "Splendid."
   In poorly disguised astonishment (for she had expected the tea to appear immediately), the Iron Orchid watched Amelia Underwood leave for the kitchen, just as Jherek came in.
   "You are looking less pensive today, my boy."
   "Most maternal of blossoms, I am completely without care! What a pleasure it is to see you. Good morning to you, sir."
   "Morning," said the time-traveller. "I am staying, presently, at Castle Canaria. The Iron Orchid suggested that I accompany her. I hope that I do not intrude."
   "Of course not." Jherek was still in a woollen dressing gown and striped nightshirt, with slippers on his feet. He signed for them to sit down and sat, himself, upon a nearby sofa. "Do the repairs to your craft progress well?"
   "Very well! I must say — for all my reservations — your Lord Jagged — your father, that is — is a brilliant scientist. Understood exactly what was needed. We're virtually finished and just in time it seems — just waiting to test a setting. That's why I decided to drop over. I might not have another chance to say goodbye."
   "You will continue your travels?"
   "It has become a quest. Captain Bastable was able to give me a few tips, and if I get the chance to return to the Palaeozoic, where they have a base, I gather they'll be able to supply me with further information. I need, you see, to get back onto a particular track." The time-traveller began to describe complicated theories, most of them completely hypothetical and absolutely meaningless to Jherek. But he listened politely until Amelia returned with the tea-tray; he rose to take it from her and place it upon the low table between them and their guests.
   "We have yet to solve the servant problem," Amelia told them as she poured the tea.
   The Iron Orchid, to her credit, entered into the spirit of the thing. "Jherek had — what did you call them, dear? — serbos."
   "Servos — mechanical servants in human form. But they were antiques, or at least of antique design."
   "Well," said Amelia, handing out the cups, "we shall manage for a while, at any rate. All we had in Bromley was a maid and a cook (and she did not live in) and we coped perfectly." As the time-traveller accepted his cup she said, "It would be such a pleasure for me to be able to return your kindness to us, when we were stranded. You must, at least, come to dinner soon."
   He was cheered as well as embarrassed. "Thank you, dear lady. You cannot, I think, realize what a great consolation it is for me to know that there are, in this peculiar world, at least a few people who maintain the old-fashioned virtues. However, as I was saying to Mr. Carnelian, I shall soon be on my way."
   "Today?"
   "Tomorrow morning, probably. It must be so, I fear, for Lord Jagged completes the circuit shortly and then it will be impossible either to leave or to return to this world."
   She sipped and reflected. "So the last brick of the gaol is about to be cemented in place," she murmured.
   "It is unwise to see it in those terms, dear lady. If you are to spend eternity here…"
   She drew a deep breath. Jherek was disturbed to see something of a return to yesterday's manner.
   "Let us discuss a different topic," he suggested brightly.
   "It is scarcely a prison, dear," said the Iron Orchid pinching, with finger and thumb, the wing of a straying butterfly tickling her chin.
   "Some would call it Heaven," tactfully said the time-traveller. "Nirvana."
   "Oh, true. Fitting reward for a dead Hindu! But I am a live Christian." Her smile was an attempt to break the atmosphere.
   "Speaking of that," said the time-traveller, "I am able to do one last favour for Lord Jagged, and for you all, I dare say." He laughed.
   "What is it?" said Jherek, grateful for the change of subject.
   "I have agreed to take Mr. Underwood and the policemen back to 1896 before I continue on my journey."
   "What?" It was almost a breath from Amelia, slow and soft.
   "You probably do not know that something happened in the city quite recently. They believe that God appeared to them and are anxious to return so that they might…"
   "We have seen them," Jherek told him anxiously.
   "Aha. Well, since I was responsible for bringing them here, when Lord Jagged suggested that I take them back —"
   "Jagged!" exclaimed Amelia Underwood rising. "This is all his plot."
   "Why should Jagged 'plot'?" The Iron Orchid was astonished. "What interest has he in your husband, my dear?"
   "None, save where it concerns me." She turned upon the disconcerted Jherek. "And you, Jherek. It is an extension of his schemings on our behalf. He thinks that with Harold gone I shall be willing to —" she paused. "To accept you."
   "But he has abandoned his plans for us. He told us as much, Amelia."
   "In one respect."
   Mildly the Orchid interjected. "I think you suspect Jagged of too much cunning, Amelia. After all, he is much involved with a somewhat larger scheme. Why should he behave as you suggest?"
   "It is the only question for which I have no ready answer." Amelia raised fingers to her forehead.
   A knock at the front door. Jherek sprang to answer, glad of respite, but it was his father, all in voluminous lemon, his features composed and amused. "Good morning to you, my boy."
   Lord Jagged of Canaria stepped into the sitting room and seemed to fill it. He bowed to them all and was stared at.
   "Do I interrupt? I came to tell you, sir," addressing the time-traveller, "that the quartz has hardened satisfactorily. You can leave in the morning, as you planned."
   "With Harold and Inspector Springer and the rest!" almost shouted Amelia.
   "Ah, you know."
   "We know everything —" her colour was high, her eyes fiery — "save why you arranged this!"
   "The time-traveller was good enough to say that he would transport the gentlemen back to their own period. It is their last chance to leave. No other will arise."
   "You made sure, Lord Jagged, that they should wish to leave. This ridiculous vision!"
   "I fear that I do not follow your reasoning, beautiful Amelia." Lord Jagged looked questioningly at Jherek.
   Amelia sank to the sofa, teeth in knuckles.
   "It seems to us," Jherek loyally told his father, "that you had something to do with Harold Underwood's recent vision in which God appeared to him in a burning sphere and ordered him to return to 1896 with a mission to warn his world of terrors to come."
   "A vision, eh?" Jagged smiled. "But he will be considered mad if he tries to do that. Are they all so affected?"
   "All!" mumbled Amelia viciously from behind her fist.
   "They will not be believed, of course." Jagged seemed to muse, as if all this news were new.
   "Of course!" Amelia removed her knuckles from her mouth. "And thus they will be unable to affect the future. Or, if they are caught by the Morphail Effect, it will be too late for them to return here. This world will be closed to them. You have staged everything perfectly, Lord Jagged."
   "Why should I stage such scenes?"
   "Could it be to ensure that I stay with Jherek?"
   "But you are with him, my dear." Innocent surprise.
   "You know what I mean, I think, Lord Jagged."
   "Are you concerned for your husband's safety if he returns?"
   "I think his life will scarcely change at all. The same might not be said for poor Inspector Springer and his men, but even then, considering what has already happened to them. I have no particular fears. Quite likely it is the best that could happen. But I object to your part in arranging matters so — so suitably."
   "You do me too much credit, Amelia."
   "I think not."
   "However, if you think it would be best to keep Harold Underwood and the policemen in the city, I am sure that the time-traveller can be dissuaded…"
   "You know it is too late. Harold and the others want nothing more than to return."
   "Then why are you so upset?"
   Jherek interposed. "Ambiguous parent, if you are the author of all this — if you have played God as Amelia suggests — then be frank with us."
   "You are my family. You are all my confidants. Frankness is not, admittedly, my forte. I am not prone to making claims or to denying accusations. It is not in my nature, I fear. It is an old time-travelling habit, too. If Harold Underwood experienced a vision in the city and it was not a hallucination — and you'll all admit the city is riddled with them, they run wild there — then who is to argue that he has not seen God?"
   "Oh, this is the rankest blasphemy!"
   "Not quite that, surely," murmured the time-traveller. "Lord Jagged has a perfectly valid point."
   "It was you, sir, who first accused him of playing at God!"
   "Ah. I was upset. Lord Jagged has been of considerable help to me, of late…"
   "So you have said."
   As the voices rose, only the Iron Orchid remained where she had been sitting, watching the proceedings with a degree of quiet amusement.
   "Jagged," said his son desperately, "do you categorically deny —"
   "I have told you, my boy, I am incapable of it. I think it is a kind of pride." The lord in yellow shrugged. "We are all human."
   "You would be more, sir, it seems!" accused Amelia.
   "Come now, dear lady. You are over-excited. Surely the matter is not worth…" The time-traveller waved his hands helplessly.
   "My coming seems to have created some sort of tension," said Lord Jagged. "I only stopped by in order to pick up my wife and the time-traveller, to see how you were settling down, Amelia…"
   "I shall settle down, sir — if I do — in my own way and in my own time, without help from you!"
   "Amelia," Jherek implored, "there is no need for this!"
   "You will calm me, will you!" Her eyes were blazing on them all. All stepped back. "Will you?"
   Lord Jagged of Canaria began to glide towards the door, followed by his wife and his guest.
   "Machiavelli!" she cried after him. "Meddler! Oh, monstrous, dandified Prince of Darkness!"
   He had reached the door and he looked back, his eyes serious for a fraction of a moment. "You honour me too much, madam. I seek only to correct an imbalance where one exists."
   "You'll admit your part in this?"
   Already his shoulder had turned and the collar hid his face. He was outside, floating to where his great swan awaited him. She watched from the window. She was breathing heavily, was reluctant, even, to let Jherek take her hand.
   He tried to excuse his father. "It is Jagged's way. He means only good…"
   "He can judge?"
   "I think you have hurt his feelings, Amelia."
   "I hurt his? Oho!" She removed the hand from his grasp and folded both under her heaving breast. "He makes fools of all!"
   "Why should he wish to? Why should he, as you say, play God?"
   She watched the swan as it disappeared in the pale blue sky. "Perhaps he does not know, himself," she said softly.
   "Harold can be stopped. Jagged said so."
   She shook her head and moved back into the room. Automatically, she began to gather up the cups and place them on the tray. "He will be happier in 1896, without question. Now, at any rate. The damage is done. And he has a mission. He has a duty to perform, as he sees it. I envy him."
   He followed her reasoning. "We shall go to seek for seeds today. As we planned. Some flowers."
   She shrugged. "Harold believes he saves the world. Jagged believes the same. I fear that growing flowers will not satisfy my impulses. I cannot live, Jherek, unless I feel my life is useful."
   "I love you," was all he could answer.
   "But you do not need me, my dear." She put down the tray and came to him. He embraced her.
   "Need?" he said. "In what respect?"
   "It is the woman that I am. I tried to change, but with poor success. I merely disguised myself and you saw through that disguise at once. Harold needed me. My world needed me. I did a great deal of charitable work, you know. Missionary work, of sorts, too. I was not inactive in Bromley, Jherek."
   "I am sure that you were not, Amelia, dearest…"
   "Unless I have something more important than myself to justify —"
   "There is nothing more important than yourself, Amelia."
   "Oh, I understand the philosophy which states that, Jherek —"
   "I was not speaking philosophically, Amelia. I was stating fact. You are all that is important in my life."
   "You are very kind."
   "Kind? It is the truth!"
   "I feel the same for you, as you know, my dear. I did not love Harold. I can see that I did not. But he had certain weaknesses which could be balanced by my strengths. Something in me was satisfied that is satisfied no longer. In your own way, in your very confidence, your innocence, you are strong…"
   "You have — what is it? — character? — which I lack."
   "You are free. You have a conception of freedom so great that I can barely begin to sense it. You have been brought up to believe that nothing is impossible, and your experience proves it. I was brought up to believe that almost everything was impossible, that life must be suffered, not enjoyed."
   "But if I have freedom, Amelia, you have conscience. I give you my freedom. In exchange, you give me your conscience." He spoke soberly. "Is that not so?"
   She looked up into his face. "Perhaps, my dear."
   "It is what I originally sought in you, you'll recall."
   She smiled. "True."
   "In combination, then, we give something to the world."
   "Possibly." She returned to her tea-cups, lifting the tray. He sprang to open the door. "But does this world want what, together, we can give it?"
   "It might need us more than it knows."
   She darted him an intelligent look as he followed her into the kitchen. "Sometimes, Jherek Carnelian, I come close to suspecting that you have inherited your father's cunning."
   "I do not understand you."
   "You are capable of concocting the most convincing of arguments, on occasion. Do you deliberately seek to mollify me?"
   "I stated only what was in my mind."
   She put on a pinafore. She was thoughtful as she washed the tea-cups, handing them to him as each one was cleaned. Unsure what to do with them, he made them weightless so that they drifted up to the ceiling and bobbed against it.
   "No," she said at last, "this world does not need me. Why should it?"
   "To give it texture."
   "You speak only in artistic terms."
   "I know no others. Texture is important. Without it a surface quickly loses interest."
   "You see morality only as texture?" She looked about for the cups, noted them on the ceiling, sighed, removed her pinafore.
   "The texture of a painting is its meaning."
   "Not the subject?"
   "I think not. Morality gives meaning to life. Shape at any rate."
   "Texture is not shape."
   "Without texture the shape is barren."
   "You lose me. I am not used to arguing in such terms."
   "I am scarcely used to arguing at all, Amelia!"
   They returned to the sitting room, but she would advance into the garden. He went with her. Many flowers sweetened the air. She had recently added insects, a variety of birds to sing in the trees and hedges. It was warm; the sun relaxed them both. They went hand-in-hand along a path between rose trellises, much as they had wandered once in their earliest days together. He recalled how she had been snatched from him, as he had been about to kiss her. A hint of foreboding was pushed from his mind. "What if these hedges were bare," he said, "if there was no smell to the roses, no colour to the insects, they would be unsatisfying, eh?"
   "They would be unfinished. Yet there is a modern school of painting — was such a school, in my time — that made a virtue of it. Whistlerites, I believe they were called. I am not too certain."
   "Perhaps the leaving out was meant to tell us something too, Amelia? What was important was what was absent."
   "I don't think these painters said anything to that effect, Jherek. I believe they claimed to paint only what the eye saw. Oh, a neurotic theory of art, I am sure…"
   "There! Would you deny this world your common sense? Would you let it be neurotic?"
   "I thought it so, when first I came. Now I realize that what is neurotic in sophisticated society can be absolutely wholesome in a primitive one. And in many respects, I must say, your society shares much in common with some of those our travellers experienced when first landing upon South Sea islands. To be sinful, one must have a sense of sin. That is my burden, Jherek, and not yours. Yet, it seems, you ask me to place that burden on you, too. You see, I am not entirely selfish. I do you little good."
   "You give meaning to my life. It would have none without you." They stood by a fountain, watching her goldfish swimming. There were even insects upon the surface of the water, to feed them.
   She chuckled. "You can argue splendidly, when you wish, but you shall not change my feelings so quickly. I have already tried to change them myself for you. I failed. I must think carefully about my intentions."
   "You consider me bold, for declaring myself while your husband is still in our world?"
   "I had not quite considered it in those terms." She frowned. She drew away from him, moving around the pool, her dress dappled with bright spots of water from the fountain. "I believe you to be serious, I suppose. As serious as it is possible for you to be."
   "Ah, you find me superficial." He was saddened.
   "Not that. Not now."
   "Then —?"
   "I remain confused, Jherek."
   They stood on opposite sides of the pool, regarding each other through the veil of falling silvery water. Her beauty, her auburn hair, her grey eyes, her firm mouth, all seemed more desirable than ever.
   "I wish only to honour you," he said, lowering his eyes.
   "You do so, already, my dear."
   "I am committed to you. Only to you. If you wished, we could try to return to 1896…"
   "You would be miserable there."
   "Not if we were together, Amelia."
   "You do not know my world, Jherek. It is capable of distorting the noblest intentions, of misinterpreting the finest emotions. You would be wretched. And I would feel wretched, also, to see one such as you transformed."
   "Then what is to be the answer?"
   "I must think," she said. "Let me walk alone for a while, my dearest."
   He acknowledged her wish. He strode for the house, driving back the thoughts that suggested he would never see her again, shaking off the fear that she would be snatched from him, as she had been snatched once before, telling himself that it was merely association and that circumstances had changed. But how radically, he wondered, had they changed?
   He reached the house. He closed the door behind him. He began to wander from room to room, avoiding only her apartments, the interior of which he had never seen, though he retained a deep curiosity about them, had often restrained an impulse to explore.
   It came to him, as he entered his own bedroom and lay down upon the bed, still in his nightshirt and dressing gown, that perhaps all these new feelings were new only to him. Jagged, he felt sure, had known such feelings in the past — they had made him what he was. He vaguely recollected Amelia saying something about the son being the father, unwounded by the world. Did he grow more like Jagged? The thoughts of the previous night came back to him, but he refused to let them flourish. Before long, he had fallen asleep.
   He was awakened by the sound of her footfall as she came slowly upstairs. It seemed to him that, on the landing, she paused at his door before her own door opened and she entered her rooms. He lay still for a little while, perhaps hoping that she would return. He got up, disseminating his night-clothes, naked as he listened; she did not come back. He used one of his power-rings to make a loose blouse and long kilt, in dark green. He left the bedroom and stood on the landing, hearing her moving about on the other side of the wall.
   "Amelia?"
   There was no reply.
   He had grown tired of introspection. "I will return soon, my dear," he called.
   Her voice was muffled. "Where do you go?"
   "Nowhere."
   He descended, passing through the kitchen and into the garden at the back, where he normally kept his locomotive. He boarded the craft, whistling the tune of Carrie Joan , feeling just a hint of nostalgia for the simpler days before he had met Amelia at the party given by the Duke of Queens. Did he regret the meeting? No.
   The locomotive steamed into the sky, black, silver and gold now. He noticed how strange the two nearby scenes looked — the thatched house and its gardens, the lake of blood. They clashed rather than contrasted with each other. He wondered if she would mind if he disseminated the lake, but decided not to interfere.
   He flew over transparent purple palaces and towering, quivering pink and puce mounds of unremarkable workmanship and imprecise invention, over a collection of gigantic prone figures, apparently entirely made of chalk, over a half-finished forest, and under a black thunderstorm whose lightning, in his opinion, was thoroughly overdone, but he refused to let the locomotive bear him back towards the city, to which his thoughts constantly went these days, perhaps because it was the city of his conception, perhaps because Lord Jagged and Nurse worked there (if they did), perhaps because he might study the man who remained his rival, at least until the next morning. He had no inclination to visit any of the friends whose company would normally give him pleasure; he considered going to Mongrove's rainy crags, but Mongrove would be of no help to him. Perhaps, he thought, he should choose a site and make something, to exercise his imagination in some ordinary pursuit, rather than let it continue to create impossible emotional dilemmas for him. He had just decided that he would try to build a reproduction of the Palaeozoic seashore and had found a suitable location when he heard the voice of Bishop Castle above him.
   The bishop rode in a chariot whose wheels rotated, red and flaming, but which was otherwise of ordinary bronze, gold and platinum. His hat, one of his old crenellated kind, was immediately visible over the side of the chariot, but it was a moment before Jherek noticed his friend's face.
   "I am so glad to see you, Jherek. I wished to congratulate you — well, Amelia, really — on yesterday's party."
   "I will tell her, ebullient Bishop."
   "She is not with you?"
   "She remains at home."
   "A shame. But you must come and see this, Jherek. I don't know what Brannart has been trying, but I would say it had gone badly wrong for him. Would you be amused for a few minutes?"
   "I can think of nothing I should want more."
   "Then follow me!"
   The chariot banked away, flying north, and obediently Jherek set a course behind it.
   In a moment Bishop Castle was laughing and shouting, pointing at the ground. "Look! Look!"
   Jherek saw nothing but a patch of parched, unused earth. Then dust swirled and a conical object appeared, its outer casing whirling counter to another within. The whirling stopped and a man emerged from the cone. For all that he wore breathing equipment and carried a large bag, the man was recognizable as Brannart Morphail by his hump and his club foot. He turned, as if to tell the other occupants of the cone not to leave, but already a number of small figures had tumbled out and stood there, hands on hips, looking around them, glaring through their goggles. It was Captain Mubbers and the remnants of his crew. He gesticulated at Brannart, tapping his elbow several times. Wet, smacking noises could be heard, even from where Jherek and Bishop Castle hovered watching.
   At length, after an argument, they all crowded back into the cone. The two shells whirled again and the cone vanished. Bishop Castle was beside himself with laughter, but Jherek could not see why he was so amused.